To Be Filled With Love

Friday, April 30, 2010

nycd batch of 2009.

in case you missed me, this is how i looked like before braces
yes i still look as ugly as ever
but not as geeky.
haha:D

i look so weird in this photo
i think its this photo where i was trying not to laugh at something someone said and then i turned my head a little and the look was a bit screwed too. HAHAHA :D
omg my arms looks so long
and my fingers looks broken.
okay, bad photo.

OMG equally unglam
it was the " what pose arh" kind of photo where we were like so random and hyper and decided to do the "special dance". hahahaa
it didnt turn out like expected but still equally hilarious
camera angle abit off too but no one is perfect.
i look disgusting
was trying to take a few more photos with my teeth mah. ><

yay :D finally a nicer photo. its not the best but, its an improvement from the two crazy ones on top.
i look like i got no backbone..
lynn looks like she's flirting with you.
HAHAHAHAA okay i take that back or she'll kill me

yay group photo!! :D this is the best photo laa.
i am sure everyone loves it.
lets describe it a little then.
from left to right.
roujing has her usual smile but huimin put the sign there. o.o HAHAHA
huimin is so cute :D
okays then after the two of them is HUAYI <3
omg i love huayi, she's so cute right. even when we are 18 i will still say she's cute. little pooh. i simply adore huayi.
me : ugly and gross, move on.
lynn: popped out of nowhere, but still oh so pretty
melissa is so funny! haha she just blew you a kiss be honoured. i love fun shots ttm.
as for the last one... she's the best with all the assurance and ahma look.
:DDDDDD NYCD <3
oh my, i just realised one of us looks pretty shuai :D

teeny little eyes due to smiles :D
my favorite friend in the whole world..
haiz its so amazing how black and white can mix.
as in colours la :D
and they meet in the middle.
she's a C, and i am a I.
yet, so close.
oh yah to be fair to her, i smacked her butt in the photo thus the expression.
hahaa she wasnt smiling at first.

the reasons why i decided to put these photos up all of a sudden are the following :

NYCD is loved. I enjoy CCA so much more than last time, thanks to all the people, and my passion for dance.
My batchmates are simply the best batchmates anyone can get. especially ZHONGGES AND DAGES <3 you are loved dearly
i miss how i look without braces. putting it up since i know some people miss it too
i decided to post pictures as i havent done so since forever D:
its a chance for you to look at how awesome we are, and how pretty my batchmates are. ( note : this excludes me. )

NYCD <3

30.04.10

okays chinese exam is over :D
now the two coming exams are the LEAST worrying one
yet the one with the most stress.
ohh chinese was kinda floppy like the others.
i guessed the shuimian one correctly
:DDDD
but the two sihans were so sickening and irritating
i didnt know how to write AT ALL.
did you? if you did, oh congrats.
cos i am just hoping to have gotten my geshi three marks
then i smile
i think i am kinda dead.
i wrote more for my sihan than my zuowen
(due to the paragraphing and too many baozhangbaodao practices, making me just HAVE to write more )
of course both were three and a half pages long
which is like 1000+ words
guess what?
they said : 至少写500+字
omgg what la. and what did my chinese teacher say?
two pages is not enough, we will only give 35 marks ( over 70 ) at MOST.
what the shit.
500 words is like.. one page and a half.
omg i will get like 25/70 for that.
hahaha.
we are expected to get 49.
and sihan : 15.
hahaa my cuo bie zi will do me harm.
wanna bet i will minus all 7 marks possible?
DDDD:
i love me and my poor chinese.
CCA is awesome!!
ohh before i say anything,
i took my measurements for the new dance
._. you can say i am not pleased with a CERTAIN measurement at all.
not please is the nice way of saying it
i am super pissed with it
anyway, apparently now i am as tall as charlene
you believe? i dont.
63/84
wont tell you whats that.
HAHAHAHA.
okays anyway i realised that yixian, dilys, yijun and elaine are super fun people to hang out with!!
oh not to forget heyao
she's so funny and sometimes perv.
hahaha :DD but she didn't come today
AWWW D:
yixian is very cute and funny :D
and super supportive and helpful!!
dilys is super hyper and hilarious
i love her facial expressions (:
yijun is equally helpful!!
and when she and dilys gets together, its super nice to "watch the show" cos i think they are like a great pair of good friends
was laughing like shit .
i wonder what they think of me now lorh.
omg i was so ego and hyper today
and wrong.
hahaha
i love NYCD <3

Labels: Chinese Dance, funny(:, nanyang

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Apologies of Love.

apologies of love

I'm really sorry for what i've done
Nothing i do can make up for it

From someone i looked forward to seeing,
You turned into a fear; away i was running.
Roses are red, Violets are blue
It is a fact that i love you

My feelings for you has never changed
Even as you made me go estranged
Our memories is stuck in my mind
As what is strong, is our bind

When i shut my lids, I think of our bids
And the smile that pushes me to a mile
When my baggage simply weighs a ton
You carried my up and got me on

You are my hope and light
That makes everything oh-so-bright

Labels: friendship, Life, nanyang

欢迎我回来

these days are quite layback yet so stressful
i have been in a great mood so far, except today
i was probably too troubled about something i guess
i'm finally back :D
and gosh i love it when public holidays are on saturdays, so it'll be a school holiday on monday.
the awesome fact about school holidays is that there are no parents
wahahaa sometimes i hate public holidays because that means extra homework and that my siblings are at home.
= more pressure than at school
in school at least there is three things to looking forward to :
1. ah ma
2. classmates
3. teacher's jokes
at home, there is many things to look forward to.
but its to get out of the house.
D:
i love isabelle more and more already
comparing the "forget the lemon" incident and now,
its totally different..
haiz.
cant wait for one more week!!
i have so many things lined up!
shopping, movies, baking, sabbaticals, loads of fun basically
haha :D i just totally not look forward to getting back of the papers
everything seems totally screwed already.
my new motto : even if i fail, dont fail too badly
it used to be get A1 in everything
then changed to just pass
now, fail but not too disgracefully.
:D see how the school changed me?
okays kidding la.
tomorrow is chinese block tests
wish me luck
i have been having tons of homework this whole week
and from the bottom of my heart, i would like to sincerely thank all the teachers who because of our very pitiful situation extended the deadline of something.
especially my LA teacher.
thanks :D
heeehee.
okays in my next blog post i will show you the poem that i crapped out dramatically in a very bored lesson
i am actually pretty proud of it actually.
ok fine, credits to isabelle and maybe a little to cherise who helped me think of the rhyming words.
cherise : one rhyme
isabelle : much more
but my poem doesnt go out to anyone la
its just pure randomness.
i think the only thing i didnt screw up this week is my biology quiz but MAYBE got 1 mark minus.
>.<
omg BAOQINGTIAN AND SUNWUKONG IS AWESOME
haha i know chinghui loves ZHUBAJIE.
he's funny and all but he has serious moobs problems
OMG i love the seniors at the chinese dance position i am in
so funny.
half the time i am giggling away.
okays i better type out my poem in the next blogpost now.

Labels: nanyang

Sunday, April 25, 2010

i miss you

ever since jessica told me the news, i have been pondering
the question now is , should i or should i not?
as I've said before, letting go is not easy.
but you don't seem to want me anymore.
were you trying to act cool like you don't really care, or is "okay" what you really meant from the bottom of your heart?
i am slowly trying to get you out of my life but somehow you keep making your way back in again
i know it was my fault
i was being childish and immature and irresponsible
but i have tried okay.
i bothered getting you something you liked for Christmas
i looked all over one whole day just for the prefect present for you.
"thank you" and that's all.
i wasn't expecting a total reunion but you could have tried more.
if you dont appreciate our friendship at all , i really dont know why i should
yes, it was all my fault, but give me a chance please.
i am not complaining or what, but i just want to know how you feel.
you should know that i have been silently looking out for you
i have been worrying for you about your friendship problems
why? i still care about you.
yeah, we may not have been together for a long time
but i still remember everything.
you are my bestfriend after all.
maybe its past tense now
i dont know anymore.
if we get back, there will be so much tension and conflict between us
will we ever be bestfriends ever again?
no, its impossible i guess
firstly, you already have someone else in your heart that you have been chasing since forever
i have always just been that person that will take the same route as you only
secondly, we have been separated for 6-7 months. i may not know you anymore. plus i know you probably hate me for leaving you at the time you needed someone the most
thirdly, she is in between
fourthly, i have no idea how to talk to you ever again.
what should i do now?
i really want our ex-friendship back
i believe that it was fate and destiny that gave us that chance
plus the fact that we could be so close ( not literally )
it wasnt pure luck
can i have this dance with you again?

Labels: friendship

Saturday, April 24, 2010

contradiction

how utterly nice.
i am the 100th visitor on my blog
and now also the 200th.
and many more in between. this is statistics to prove how dead this blog is.
as in i update a few times in a week, and yet nobody comes.
oh well D:
in about 1h15min i have tuition.
sians. i would have to start worrying about my chinese blocks.
i scared i cannot write finish in time leh XD
my speed decreased.
shits la. thank goodness for O level i only need to take for higher chinese
as in its bad enough but its only one paper right??
ok fine, its actually two but one subject only :)
i love my new blogskin, though i am still searching for my ancient one which i just cant seem to find.
later need to make history notes
i have to finish by today i hope
at least half
yesterday was quite a nice day actually
though i was extremely sleepy in CME.
>< but the other lessons werent too bad
oh wait , chinese we had to write sihan in 40 minutes
kinda almost died
i finished la JUST NICELY ><
but that is because i started early.
dont you simply agree i am so dead? i know.
ok the more we do on poetry right, i kinda think it is very very sweet for someone to write you a poem that is nice (:
haha as in writing a poem isnt that easy, and since its dedicated to you, dont you just want to go " AWWW"
ok if its to hurt you then you still go " AWW" and after that you swear.
:D my mortals still havent replied.
after three-four weeks.
congrats, they even broke my record
guess what? i dont really give a hoot anymore.
i shant complain or chase them anymore, since they dont give a damn, i shant give a damn too.
yesterday CCA was super fun.
i love the new dance :D
even though it has weird things like banyao, fansheng, and many other impossible to do tiaos.
hahaha but i love my position
the people there are so nice :D
though i kinda feel out of place sometimes thanks to my height but oh wells.
:D
i got a " i love you" SMS yesterday.
how sweet huh. guess what, its from my bestfriend-.-
i was quite pissed at jessica yesterday
if there was one thing she did right yesterday, it was to send me that message
i waited 30 minutes for her after cca, and i was feeling oh so tired and drag.
after 30 minutes she came up and said with a smile " ohh erm my mum is fetching me you know"
wth. and you didnt want to tell me earlier? thanks.
so i grabbed huayi and we just left
to make things even more awesome,
it was raining like nobody's business.
ohh but i met chiting at the busstop :D
and she took 74 with me.
after i bluffed her that the bus in front was way too crowded
and after she saw TWO 74s coming.
haha she was like oh ok.
but we were waiting for 74 to move front, and she realised how un-crowded the bus in front was.
i was like " Heehee bluff you one mah :D "
she gave me THE look.
i was like O.o, lets go on 74.. hahaa
then i went crazy on 74. talking nonstop as usual :D
and she said even though isabelle can go crazy at times, its only probably 1% of me.
which is a little true.
when i go crazy, no one can stop me.
WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA wait actually only one person can.
but i would still be giggling like nobody's business.
my highness comes at random points
but if you want me to start it off, just let me accuse you of something
too afraid of the hurt caused?
then start a sick topic.
hahahaa :D i am pretty polluted after all.
okays i better go do my catechism homwork.
or later i will get the deathly glare.
(did i mention i love the song IRONY, haha! the lyrics are awesome)

Thursday, April 22, 2010

today was quite fun:D
haha i was super high like half the time
it started in Language Arts (:
All because of the topic! haha it was poetry (:
the teacher was like " isnt it nice if someone writes a poem to you? even nicer if its someone from the opposite sex?"
isabelle and i were like giving the -.- stare.
then after that it switched on the "horny" button. hahaha
haha then had ppt slides
so we were like COPY COPY COPY
but of course cannot copy so fast lar ( i was still faster than isabelle :D )
he was like talk talk talk SWITCH
then we would be like AHHH
haha it was super funny.
but i usually only copy so i wont fall asleep
i think he saw me sleeping ytd
DIE. haha so today i copied three pages worth of notes
:D i am so proud of my notes!!!
and i gained my love for geography again.
AWWW><
hahaa super high
then later recess. even worse -.-
isabelle was like " aya go for second recess lorh"
and today i just felt SOOO greedy.
so i just had to go down to eat. haha but of course since it was a thursday, no one wanted to eat in first recess..
oh but i dunno how but somehow i ended up going with nichole to eat.
nichole was like "actually i dont mind going to eat but.."
so i was like " hey today got laksa lets go eat"
then lalala we went down
cos the whole time i was feeling damn high
so of course the egoness level naturally went UP :D
hahaha so when we went down i was like " now i know why you want to come down to eat. not because of the laksa, but because its a privellege to eat with me"
haha she was like " WHAT?!!!"
ohh then second incident is at the asian delight stall.
two girls left when we reached so when i got so ego i went " you see nichole, people like me soo much that they make way for me so that my queue would be faster. "
hahahaa she was like a bit WTH CANDICE haha and shuning joined behind but we couldnt see her at first due to her awesome height
:DDDDDD
hahaa then i was also extremely hyper after school.
i started accusing isabelle out of nowhere
SUPER FUNNY :D
and i led rachel and chiting to believe i was SMS-ing my brother
which they did believe
OMG SO FUNNAY:D
isabelle's amused look was so hilarious.
hahaa i cant wait to laugh about it tmmr with her again.
shit la my thumbdrive is missing.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

harlo earthlings
i am back. with absolutely NOTHING to say ._.
oh wait, i do know what to say :D
hahaa i hate the feeling of losing a close friend
as in with us changing seats and all, i know the whole relationship problem - not just my group or that group or what , but really everyone in the WHOLE class - will be changed and evolved and somewhat shitty again. i thought it would last a while but yet again, nothing lasts. you may be happy for a while but were you ever happy forever? nah. same with sadness though if you look on the bright side. you can never be 24/7 emo ( ITS IMPOSSIBLE REALLY. you go and bathe also damn emo? you sleeping also emo like shit? )
i dont know whats important to me sometimes anymore. i dont know or really dont even want to care to know what is important. i just know that all my friends are dear to my heart. losing one of them, ANY, is like ripping the heart out, tearing it, pooring acid all over, stomping on it before placing it back in again. it hurts basically. it would affect my life too._.
the thing is, my feelings are hardly reciprocated. i can love someone like some shit, and never get loved back enough. never. its like that even with jessica and all. she is my bestfriend, but she will never be able to love me as much as i can love her.
just to sidetrack abit, she say she may change sex. then i will have a bf and we will have premarital sex. HAHAHA just joking if i gave you a scare
i wont give up. not so easily. i am not a quitter. i will still strive silently until you feel it one day. Letting go is not easy, it may do that person well but that person will never know. She will always just think you dont want her anymore or what. But if letting go is truly the better choice, i will choose it. Yet again. I once let two close friends go so that they will gain their happiness. At that point it didnt matter to me whether i will gain my happiness. i just didnt want their happiness to be affected by me. I wasnt important. My friends are.
I dont want to let anyone go. No one dear to me. I want to be selfish and keep them all close and be possesive. But they wont be happy. Its impossible to have everyone. Its impossible to have one person already. Bestfriend? is there such a thing? what are friends really? i dunno. i am searching for the answers i know i will think i will get one day. but no one ever knows.
this may have been a random post, but it came from the bottom of my heart no less.

Labels: Life

Monday, April 19, 2010

changes. yet again.

hmm today we chose our new seating arrrangement..
its the last year very first arrangement.
quite nice la (:
i am all the way at the back in the center.. hmph?
i wonder if that is good or bad cos its like at the back!!
and no more isabelle.
= no more copying during quizzes, no more outbursts, no more venting of anger, no more gossip and giggling.
OMGGGGG ISABELLE DARLING IS GONE.
i just realised how sad i am. haha in class i was excited i dunno why -.-
i am now sitting with jiahui and jianing.
:D

Labels: nanyang

Sunday, April 18, 2010

cip is loved

awww today i went to the hospital again !! :D you must be thinking " walao, go old folks home also put smiley face. what kind person is this?" haha no la today was really quite fun you know!!! HAHAS. okays bus ride first right. heehee (: of course it was the happy losers part two! wahahaha i know you are excited. omg i forgot what songs we sang but we had loads of fun.. haha and cherise wanted to hear us, and isabelle kept turning back giving us the " wth " look. oh and isabelle? thanks for lending us your ipod. you can be our funder :D hahahaa.. we sang one really nice song which i just cant seem to remember now.. oh and the school song.. and the whole of you belong with me. hhaha we didnt edit the lyrics nichole style. haha. ohh and a bit of tong hua. which after that we heard shuning sing and were too embarrassed to open our mouths about that song with such quality already. gawd.. haha at the laoren yuan. OMG OMG OMG <3 we were in groups right? so of course the six of us la. then we were sent to the day rehab centre. the best place. the happiest place. the (in terms of temperature) coolest place. you know what we did there? play mahjong and cards -.- for two hours. i know. hahaha yitong and i teamed up against two other workers, cherise weiting and old ah ma one team, another ah ma. so five players. each time we win so funny. yitong and i somemore got this theory on putting the coins below the bottle to "lay eggs" lay money. i know. our fengshui very good one lorh. hahaa isabelle and chinghui play mahjong. like srzly. they even won -.- AHHHH. ahhahaa i wanna play again (: OMGGGGGGG ok the way back to school. so funny. LMAO. we sang you are the music in my sharpay version. first 18 minutes. SO BIMBOTIC. omg : 5.6.7.8. NANANANA. NANANANA. HAHAHAHHAAA LAUGH LAUGH. we present to isabelle. she was like -.- I LOVE CIP (: <3

catechism drag

had catechism class ytd
rachel came back.
class was boring.
somehow, this are the only three sentences to describe my saturday if i wanted to. hahas
of course i wont leave it like that, make my life sound SO boring-.-
well i had tuition, and what do you expect from tuition? nothing.
its a one - way thing. you give her money to crap words out. D:
then i had catechism class. actually when it first started it was quite fun.
haha we forced roy to stand up and that part i dunno why but it was just hilarious
couldnt stop giggling like siao.
after that, it was just as boring as ever-.-
i think its cos its just group work chat chat and not really any special activities.
debate is awesome kays.
that kind of group work is soo fun and nice :D
and people actually sincerely laugh from the bottom of their hearts
and not laugh at people , but with people.
>< i want something much much more interesting
and YAY i dont have to wear a dress next week (:
can wear my jeans and tee again.
pheww

Thursday, April 15, 2010

vanishing acts

yupp , i have officially finished vanishing acts yesterday night
read it in one day (: hehe the point of MC.
wahaha ok anyways back to the vanishing acts <3
haha its a good book!! :D
if i learnt one thing from the book, its that i am super biased to pretty girls and handsome boys.
hahaha! even if they arent the heroes of the book or the good characters
my heart still goes out to them <3
haha ugly people i dont ignore or what la but they are just less interesting ._.
ANYWAYS ( again -.- ) , i think that the father really loves the child a lot.
well i think that all parents in this world loves their child more than themselves.
(or at least, most)
haha thats from me, its not an important person quote or what.
wait, i am important.
oh wells. hmph (:
here comes the essay :
no matter what decisions parents makes for their child, they are always putting the child or at least a child, as first place. they are willing to give up their lives to save their children if that is possible. from the moment the child is born, they would want to protect her/him from all the danger in the world and instead, if any danger were to fall unto the children, parents would gladly take their place. it is very touching isnt it? >< i am not a parent yet so i can fully understand this as i have said, and i know i will still find my parents naggy no matter what. but i learnt. to appreciate is never an easy task.
i think delia should go to eric. yes, he is an alcoholic. but do you expect him to be perfect? no one is perfect. that is his one flaw. like alex rivers. OMG I LOVE ALEX. ok sorry. hahaa oh wells. most importantly, he loves delia. he gave up power and money for her. he gave up what he could have for her. = he loves her. ok fine, fitz loves her too. but.. he's not handsome. ahahah! but i dunno, i think eric loves her more lorh. like come on la. plus he is the dad of her child right. sophie needs her REAL dad. fitz? lost his job. unreliable. omg delia i dont care go join eric la. wth you will soon see that fitz is only perfect as your bestfriend. go wed eric now. haha i dont care!! i like eric . of course, my fav no matter what is ALEX.. omgg ><
i love vanishing acts but you know the ending i want ^^

Labels: Touched

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

puke

haiz. i am sick.
apparently its the stomach flu
and i got fever, sorethroat, runny nose, headaches..
not to mention i vomited four times yesterday
and the fact that i am super super frail right now
oh and guess what?
there is NAPFA five items tmmr.
LUCKY ME.
-.- i sure hope i feel much better tmmr.
i hate being sick.
i guess the only advantage of being sick is that suddenly more people starts getting concerned about you.
which will go off once you are not sick again
i wont really say its a pretence
but its like cant you maintain it?
okay nvm i better do my gonghan
byes

Monday, April 12, 2010

NICH! - Part 2

omg nich changed the lyrics again. hahaha read :
( its copyright hor )

she wear short skirt, i wear big bra
she wear bikini, i wear g-string

she got big boobs, i got nothing
she got pink bra, i wear panty!

Labels: funny(:

yay nich!

i forgot how much i love nich
hahaha I LOVE YOU NICH(:
the one person out of two that makes me smile like shit on MSN
and laugh with all the emoticons :D

Saturday, April 10, 2010

catechism class debate

today was loads of fun!!! :D i am referring to catechism class only. tuition was.. drag. come on la i think i wasted ( or rather, my mum ) today's lesson la!! she just kept reading from online to help me for my chinese SIA. like i cant do that myself-.- sians. lunch.. then after that CATECHISM CLASS hahaa super fun (:
it starts at 1445. i reached at 1425. met valerie downstairs.. went up together and we saw kimmy. apparently she needed to pee. right away. and the female toilet was locked. (: i am not gloating but it was just funny. i was like " shhh " haha which made her want to pee more! and after a lot more " SHHH" , we went to the toilet. haha the female toilet was cleaning in progress. we sneaked out way in only to be chased out as it is "still very wet, very dangerous".. then go to the males toilet.. DE PANG BIAN. hahaha the handicap toilet lorh. i kept asking her to go to the male toilet. haha!! then after that go to catechism class
hmm bad news : i am the only girl left in the group. rachel got some YOG commitments which leaves me to be the only girl. freak la. one girl : three boys. hmph. so sad can. i am abandoned. now i have no one to giggle with but only at. pfft. i am mad la. it was supposed to be three boys three girls. now ?? -.-
anw today was on DEBATES on human rights. My group only got three people ; rachel and roy didnt turn up. so we merged with valerie's group. their helper was stephanie. she asked me what i thought about the subject . guess what? i am now actually super thankful for TKAM. hahaha i said like the singapore is multiracial.. blahblah these people work their hearts our for us.. rmbr its a sin tkam. lol the adults laughed(: after that i got pretty cold and hyper. hahaha was laughing every few seconds. and sean thinks i was gloating when it was his turn to speak. haha i wasnt lorh! oh wells (: then when we each have to give a speech it was super funny. everyone said what they had to say and i was last. when i said it i was three fourth done then they were like " ok ok ok. last speaker" .. apparently the last speaker summarizes everything and rebutts everything too. oh wells(:
okays debate time. i was freezing. like hell. three aircons blowing in my direction. temperature probably -100 degrees celcius or sth. pfft. i sat in the middle. valerie was the first speaker. sean second. me last. woots. how nice -.- then ok while stacy's group was talking i was making notes and telling the two of them what to say. how nice of me. no actually in hindsight i regret it cos i think its looks kinda boastful and proud. sorry. but anyway my speech went something like this : singapore is a multi racial country that promotes each race and religion to live together in HARMONY. this is also why we have racial harmony day. if singaporeans do not start living together, we will always live in prejudice and hatred. these foreign workers work so hard each day, they ought to have equal rights to live properly with other people. they come all the way to singapore to make a living. without these people, would singapore be what they are right now? they have strongly helped in our growth and development. since they have made this world a better place to live in, and if we dont let them live in residential areas together with the rest, it is truly a sin, *pauses for dramatic effect* to kill a mockingbird. then i sat down. hahaa super funny. the adults were laughing. this proves how ancient the book is !!! zomg. hahaha
well after that were some really funny debates. and then we were laughing hysterically at the others. stephanie thought i was nervous as i was shivering up there. yeah right, it was just frigging cold.
haha then the price presentations. it was best speaker award. the two people next to me were like chanting candice after the first best speaker was announced. i was like wth, i know my name very nice dun need to say so many times right. walao then really i was the other person. oh my tian la. haha i won some chocolate that i gave to other people ( mostly gretel ) because i didnt really enjoy it plus braces limited me to only eating the surface of it. awesome huh. yeah then we recited the alphabet and went home. stacy went home with me ( as in take same bus ) cos she needed to go to the SP gate 1. haha (:

Labels: catechism class

Friday, April 09, 2010

老人院

today i went to the old folks home. hmm my bus buddy was chinghui....who was annoyed at me at first cos i had made her angry but after that was ok since i apologised. And my form teacher aka chinese teacher sang songs to us. which i have no comment about that.. but we all know.. (the truth) hahaha! :D
well anw on the bus right, chinghui and i were fooling around. At first we kept on taking photos of isabelle jiejie and weiting (: haha and tricia and yitong but backview so deleted. took the pics with ching's phone and yes my phone no battery so sad right. i know. haha then we suddenly dunno how talk about singing. cos ching and i were arranged to go to the karaoke part with the old folks. i was quite hoping that when i sang, no glass would break and no one's eardrums would be destroyed, including mine. teehee. well anyway yeah songs. hahaa we were saying how terrible we were, and suddenly i sang WO AI NI. then chinghui caught u singing AI ZHE NI. hahaha then so nicely, WE sang JIU XIANG LAO SHU AI DA MI. then of course we do what girls do best : giggle like nobody's business. damn funny. haha then we decided we shall get our own group and albums. guess what was our group's name? it was THE HAPPY LOSERS. hahahahaa cos we cant sing at all. hmm the next song was the national anthem. see how much we love our country?! yeah. haha we did it in four four time. conductor way. she sang half i sang half then got one part must hold we hold and go damn high pitched. omg and weiting and isabelle were giving us the stares and laughing. at us. hahaha. then taylor swift. OMG. i was sop, chinghui bass. hahaha. SHE WEARS HIGH HEELS . I WEAR SNEAKERS. ahhahaha damn epic la!!! but super funny (: and bimbotic. hahas. cos it was damn off. and yet sounded quite decent.. then erm it was yue liang dai biao wo de xin. ermms. ermms. ahha. you get the point. then one more song i cant really rmbr now.. >< but haha by the time we got to the hospital, we were laughing like siao.
hmm it was quiet and pretty humid in the old folks home. and shit i didnt make a donation. i shall do so next friday. ok we went to karaoke room. realised we supp to bring our own CD.. then freak out. so chinghui and i left ( we really couldnt sing ) and joined the group in the folding origami which turned out to be only folding stars with the old folks..
we had to wait upstairs for a while as the old folks were having some exercise thingy going on where they sat in a circle ( yes all in wheelchairs >< ) and they had to kick this yoga ball around. with nice music. hahaha then we pushed them back. taught them. well, we tried. in the end it was more of giving them. and chinghui scolding them whenever they say they are OLD. hahaha we were like " not old la not old" , then they say sth like " 97 liao" then you would be like -.- still not old.. hahaha very hard!!. then go upstairs and it was better. turns out there are lesser males. there was this old active guy at the karaoke table there and when he saw us he went " LAO SHI HAO, TONG XUE MEN HAO, WO MEN KE YI SHANG KE LIAO". omg so sad. i always sing that song to make me happy. but now i doubt i can do the same again.. then the males were much more active but we still moved to the female department on the third floor. ching and i talked to this pair of friends. who kept insisting they cant fold stars. haha i taught one successfully. it was weird cos they were talking i dunno what language. and omigosh i better learn my cantonese + hainanese soon. then this other old lady i went with cherrie... she went to the next bed i went to that old lady. it said she can speak english and cantonese.. so i felt quite safe(: until the first thing she said was chinese-.- hahaha.. she saw that we were from nanyang then she said "ahh nanyang, my two children from there. now they leave go .....( couldnt hear/didnt understand ) " then she cried. omg i was so scared la. i was like "bu yao shang xin le" then gave her more stars.. then she said "ni men ai mu xiao hen hao. ni men hen cong ming. xie xie ni men de ai xin" i was almost touched to tears lorh. this abandoned poor old lady kept praising us though she was so sad by her two kids.. and she is like 97 which is really old and i had to say ni hen you fu qi, shang tian bao you ni... blahblahblah. so sad.
then got another one is behind. she was super high! in a sad way. she talked chinese. murmmured chinese. haha then she said what " ni de baba you zuo gong ma?" -.- and like dogs dont like sweet stuff, like sour stuff. omg so scary. turns out she had a dog when she was very young, and she loved it. when she was escaping from i dunno what she had to eat it or sth. so sad. she started to cry!! omg this is such an emotional day. then she got two soft toys. erms. which are dogs i guess.. poor her la i think. they are ALL　ｖｅｒｙ　ｐｏｏｒ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ．　haiz.. shall pray for them
somewhere in between, i received shocking news. and yeah.. cant say it here but i was scared all right. freaked out till i got home. omg..
i cant wait for next friday. can see the old folks again. and help them better this time round.
yours truly, candice

good luck (:

JIAYOUS EVERYONE FOR OM.
DONT WORRY ABOUT THE RESULTS
WHAT MATTERS IS I STILL LOVE YOUU

change of heart

hey peeps. i guess you can tell from the title that i have just finished reading change of heart. i realised something, before i read a book, if someone tells me something about it like how good it is or how touching it is, i will never find it as good as they say. because i will be anticipating the nice parts and setting high expectations. sometimes, in the process, i miss out whats really important.
when i was reading picture perfect, i thought it was going to be a happy nice couple-y book. none of my friends read it before so i didnt know anything. yeah therefore i was really touched and now i love the book. to sidetrack a little : i love alex rivers. hahaha.
my sisters keeper is another one. i knew many people were very touched by the book. but i was skeptical. i didnt believe that it could touch me as much as it really did in the end. i had no expectations thus i truly appreciated the book. \
as for mercy.. it was the first book i read. and i did cry, but as i was in front of others i didnt dare to let the tears out. i didnt know ANYTHING about jodi picoult at all at that time , that is why.. yeah.
keeping faith and nineteen minutes were great books i liked a lot. no comment on it besides the fact i like ian fletcher. hahaha.
the tenth circle. hmm. i was expecting a lot from the book because of what it was about and therefore greatly disappointed. but i will read it again at the end of the year and maybe be truly touched this time round.
ok finally : change of heart. i would like to thank nichole (: for trusting me with the book and lending it to me oh so promptly!! :D it was a nice book.
hmm sylvia read the book before and told me it was a nice book. she also said a long time ago when i was reading my sisters keeper, " jodi picoult writes very sad stories. thats why i dont read them". therefore , in my mind, i sorta knew that change of heart probably made her cry. and that was why i had a very high expectation of change of heart when i was reading it. i kept waiting for the part where i would break down and tear. well, many parts almost made me did that, but it was NEVER enough. in picture perfect and my sisters keeper, i started crying because of one sentence. i was waiting for that sentence in change of heart. but i have to admit, it was a great book. of course. i felt pity for june and shay. it is true, who can really decide your death? yes, you killed someone. but to kill you? whats the use. one less criminal. yeah and one more life God brought into this world gone. yeah and more sadness around the earth. no one has the right to decide a person's fate. only yourself. oh and i was super happy with the return of ian fletcher!! (: he was damn cool of course ~~ omg i love keeping faith. hahaha okays. i shant say too much before i get emotional.

Labels: Touched

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

7 April

hmm today was quite a nice day actually.
ok besides the block test part
but i pretty much guessed like 75% of the question so i think i should be safe.. ?
my essay was totally from the essay i wrote the night before-.-
cross my fingers and hope my friends and i can get high marks
since most of us screwed up chemistry. HAHA
then blah blah blah
its biology.
he came in and said some stuff then started on the ppt slides..
and it was like " here is the most awaited topic : sexual reproduction" *giggles from everywhere*
lol. so typical.
i was just sitting there like nothing happened, and being extremely excited.
i think isabelle hates me now. hahaha
i was soo sick throughout the whole lesson.
and cherise too of course.
omg haha~!!!

then my awesome ahma jessica's 82nd bday!!
yeah i know she's old.
i bought her a blackforest cake which is quite expensive
hmv earphones which arent cheap
facial masks as a joke but are expensive too.
i feel so broke.
but she was really touched.
we went down to the canteen to celebrate after school
hmm some of her classmates were there
and some chinese dance people too.
but the cake population went mostly to her classmates.
hahaa!!
but jessica was really really happy.
oh and there was no erm lighter
so i went " JESSICA WHY YOU NEVER BRING LIGHTER"
hahaha super epic.
then she blew a fake flame off the candle
one candle because she so old not enough candles so just put 1
so she wont so paiseh ma! 82 liao le leh~
then we went KAP with vivian and claudia
so funny~
we kept making fun of jessica
and we met minghui there too!! she wished ME happy birthday.
hahaha
so cute :D

thats my day for now.
three people bugging me on MSN.
sorry! love you~

Saturday, April 03, 2010

understood?

Atticus Finch said in order to understand someone, you must climb into his skin.
i prefer to differ.
even if you climbed into my skin, i doubt you would understand me.
Do you ever feel like you don't understand yourself sometimes?
Then HOW can you expect others to understand you?
( please note this is a different matter with parents and family members )
no one can ever understand anyone not even oneself
only God knows you better than you know yourself
its an undeniable fact.

to my dear lost friend : who are you? you act so much i dont really know who you are now. not that i have ever knew. you dont want others to see that you are sad, so you cover it up and place a fake smile on your face. i really want to know you one day, please give me the chance. you may laugh at me, if you want to use that to show your sadness, i will willingly be the stupid one.

Friday, April 02, 2010

Picture Perfect - yet another touching time

i have read picture perfect
of course, it touched me to tears but this time, i did not expect it
i was curious and i turned to the back to see the ending after a few chapters but i was like " chey "
when i finished reading the book, i was crying buckets, no kidding
it was so touching on how much the two of them love each other so much and yet divorce is the best way out for all of them. i hate Will actually. i know he has a purpose in this book but i just wish like why cant he be cassie's brother or sth. argh.
it was a short book compared to handle with care which is twice as long but still the effect is almost equivalent to the after effect of my sisters keeper.

Just like how current chinese teacher had said (in chinese of course -.- ) : a good story is one that will touch your heart or at least make you remember it after you read it. If it does nothing to you, it is a poor quality story.

I am scared of reading vanishing acts and handle with care which i bought too
if for picture perfect i can cry like that, then vanishing acts and handle with care which is much much more touching.. i wonder what will happen
plus these books have an effect on me, it stays in me and i find myself quoting the author sometimes. she says things that can solve my problems, things that let me see the problems in this real world, things that i pray more for each weekend, and most importantly, she says things that i may never dare to say. i applaud her in my blog post.

Labels: Touched