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sentosa with churchmates♥

2010-12-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

today was awesome pawsome!♥ I had a hell load of laughter hehe gosh so much fun! I actually kind of forgotten how retarded it was to hang out with this.. annoying bunch of silly people.

okay so i left my house to church, and i was kinda worrying i would be late, so i walked super duper fast, and i almost slipped due to my stupid slipper many times grr. then i reached there, i was the ONLY sec two there, so it was kinda awkward since i dont know anyone. then people started slowly coming, i regconised the dumbness of the people as usual -.-, then we said a little prayer, and headed for the bus. sentosa had better be ready for us rowdy people. haha gretel was using her iphone to let me listen to some really nice songs, and she told me all about her concert experience :D aww oh yes and and and and and haha when we were like at sentosa already, gretel moved to the back to "annoy chris" damn funny(: AND THEN WE REACHED THE BEACH :D so we headed to the luge, it was drizzling, but it stopped quite fast. We couldnt get a family deal D: so each person one ticket lorh. I went for the 2 skyride, 2 luge package. so expensive i tell you i am freaking broke after that damn thing. but super fun omg! gretel, kelly and i screamed our heads off while on the first skyride trip :D hah to relieve stress lah. we deserved it. but we are so freaking unlucky, we had the guys behind us -.- and they imitated us GAILY, and yes sang songs. wth "we are the world" and check yes juliet. damien was like " RUN BABY RUN " and then we were like ... YEAH GO RUN GO RUN TOTALLY MAN. the luge was damn fun :D haha it was my first time on it and i loved it so much, although i wasnt fast or whatsoever, I really enjoyed it alot. I went on the Jungle one first! heh then go up again, gretel threw her helmet at the guys, missed it , and it didnt drop on the net, but the grass. oh well! haha it was quite hilarious. then after that i went on the other trail shit what its name again haha, and i went faster, but screamed my ass off this time round. As I've said, stress relief (: Better than Panadol a million times. and yes i slapped chris like shit when we got down cos he laughed at me. and sean agreed that he deserved it. then as the guys went to cycle, gretel and i went to walk at the beach. I screamed even more at the sea, i finally did so i was so happy really. I loved the feeling of the soft sand, and the water gushing in, it has this calming effect on me. That moment I could no longer think of sad, angry or stressful moments, but I just felt bliss. I dont know I love beaches! ♥ haha then then err what happened ah D: oh yes, we went to see jac and kelly and took some photos, struggled with a little bicycle issue and went back to the beach place. back there, we saw the guys, and apparently my smart brother damien knocked into a truck. and injured himself. I was actually quite worried, but he appeared fine so whatever~ haha then i wore my cool shades, and the scenery just appeared a thousand times cooler. and we walked at the water again, went into this place while the guys played ball and got wet.. Not that i have anything to say about that. We gathered again, and played dog and bone. I kept forgetting my number, and honestly i just suck. haha but it was really hilarious on how the person can always escape with the bone. its not like strategy or what, just pure.. epicness(: haha so much fun really. then the tide came in, damn high tide man. disgusting too. so we went to KOUFU. and candice-in-debt moment came. wts. as of today, i owe gretel 11 bucks, and damien and sean i dont know how much but they claim its a treat~ i ate chicken rice but damn cold so gretel and i went outside and we sat down at the water area there and had a h2h talk(: then went back in, froze like shit, laughed at people drinking all sorts of things, and went back out. awesome pawsome. THIS IS THE FUN PART HAHAA. WATERRRR. All the other girls except gretel and i went to the bridge, so we were stuck with the guys. After some failed jumpshots, and successful ones, COUGH COUGH COUGH, I went into the water. haha with damien. damn epic (: he has no sense of balance, AT ALL. so he kept "almost" falling in and gretel kept trying to push him in, and his whole pants were wet. sean joined us later on, and yes another pants-are-wet fellow. difference? one cares, one doesnt. but damn shiok and cooling I LIKE :D haha whee then later the rest came back, and eventually somehow or another, chris carried damien into the "sea' and threw him in, and soaked. the other guys slowly submitted to their fate and got drenched. laughed like shit there. seriously gosh those people are mad fellows. but super funny it was damn fun, and i just couldnt stop laughing the whole damn time! haha then we went to vivoooooo! okay. cough. reached the cinema, had a curfew problem D:, had MORE MONEY ISSUES, and in the end, we decided on a 1600 3D Narnia show. YAYYYY SO HAPPY WHOOTS. haha then gretel and I followed damien and chris to the arcade. and then went out. and back in. and then we went to this machine, and out of nowhere sean appeared damn scary. haha and he came back with so much more money >.< RICH DUDE. so he treated us to cinema food. i was kidding but he was serious -.- haha then we went up to the lounge and were just very silly, we did this wave thing they copied from meeee HAHA DAMN AWESOME. so much fun ♥ then watch the movie. gretel and i kept telling damien and chris horny things ZIPPER cough cough hahaa then the movie started. throughout the movie i kept throwing popcorn at damien, and i ran out so i had to take sean's one haha! but narnia is awesome, though scary at times D: and damn cold! but ilovedit. then we went toilet, met jade and sophia there o.o haha but i didnt go toilet, queue too long! then i went out lorh. then the three guys came out. i was leaning against the wall, they were like a circle. so when those two girls passed by, i can totally imagine what they were thinking. 1 girl with 3 guys tsk. ahh whatever haha who cares man seriously. oh then go home. the rich kids took taxi (damien and gretel) while sean chris and i took bus. MY BUS CAME FIRST YAY.

omg i really love all my churchmates ttm ♥♥♥

2010-12-01T20:03:00.000+08:00

did i mention i adore my batchmates? and yes, i finished songs of the humpback whale!(: great book!

2010-11-14T19:21:00.000+08:00

haha my blogger is freaking dead, and its not like as if my livejournal is any much alive either.
hmm today i went to the gym! yes i know, knowing such a pigso like me, i wouldnt last long at the gym. but its okay i spent 1 hour there, burnt off quite a bit of calories and also had fun and now i'm aching a bit but its okay. towards a healthier lifestyle!

i miss my friends already. like i feel as if since i came back from beijing, my relationships with everyone has changed. with my classmates, my batchmates and even a little with my churchmates.. its like as if i drifted away from all this people. i miss september. gah i should just freaking move on.

WHO HAS AFTERSHOCK AND WANTS TO WATCH IT

harvesting the heart

2010-09-16T22:46:00.000+08:00

i know I promised not to post ever again here until EOY D: sorry, apologies
but I had also promised to post after reading a Jodi Picoult book, so i have to break one promise, oopsies. And though this post is overdue since i finished the book quite a while ago, I'll try to remember as many things as possible. And thank you Christine, for buying this book for me, for opening up my views on certain things and for, giving me a birthday gift in the very first place, what i'll have to thank you for is, being the best deskie ANYONE could ever enjoy (:
Okay, Harvesting the Heart. Of course its awesome!!(: its about this girl, she was 18, then like her mother left her when she was young, then she met this guy when she left her father .. o.o its in the genes. this awesomely hot guy is nicholas prescott, the runner up to alex rivers ikr. haiz, alex is too perfect already, even nicholas cant win him. yet i'll still take nicholas anytime man. (:
hahas oops okay then like lemme continue, she got a baby. and she gave birth, and she couldnt take good care of the baby, and she wears out damn easily, which made her lose confidence in taking care of the baby as she had aborted her first baby. so she ran away again, to find her mother.. and then when she came back, nicholas ignored her ttm.. she went to stay with nicholas's parents who were actually rather awesome people, then the baby max got sick. real sick. and then the parents had sex again --" and the ending.. its plain retarded but i still love the book.
i guess i wasnt reading it at one go, so i didnt have much feelings about it.
but i do pity paige alot, not nicholas. o.o though i do think paige can be a bitch sometimes and nicholas is just.. OH SO FINE. :D

i cant talk liao, need to go sleep. bye peeps
this will be on my livejournal. in greater detail

currently unavailable

2010-09-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

hello my dear blogger (:

okays i'm sorry to have officially abandoned you after i created livejournal, and yeah i do feel rather bad about it :/ yet i cant make any promises -because they will be empty- that i will use you more often from now on just because i feel guilty.
however, i will use you when EOYs are over okays? (: i dont know which one i'll use more, but i'll still continue to love you as you are my first blog ever. and i know cherrie will murder me if i dont update this place, and since she's not able to view my livejournal, well yeah D:
should i unprivate my livejournal? nahh, it reveals too much..

here's the link. there's only one viewable post where i leaked out already on this blog.
dont bother going there, unless EOYs are over, or unless you have a livejournal and you wanna make friends.

my livejournal

see you in one month and one week's time my dear blogger. Till then, I love you (:

the final showdown -reposted from my livejournal-

2010-09-12T13:21:00.000+08:00

okays so i went there, and realised oh shit 174 stops like only 2 busstops away what the freak. then i walked and jogged my way there.. went to change, and got a call from isabelle in the toilet. then i went outside forever 21, and a whole group of monsters -i'm just joking- pop out and said "why you wait outside so hot" hahahas epicness. it was like what family renioun?! we hugged and i acknowledged every single one of them. i called chris ah gong only to find out hes my ahma D: hahas and then my stupid idiotic twin brother damien passed me my present which was what i so did not want but aww thanks(: hahas okays then then then. yayness~! hahahas okay then after the freaking hot sun, they were like why are we standing here. so we went in, aww crap i love aircon. hahas okays then erm nowhere to go again --" so hahas we just stood in one circle at the concierge. HAHA for a long time, and we laughed about many things while impatiently waiting for gretel kimmy marc and gladys. lol and finally after shit loads of laughter, they came :D haha we were outside.. then there was this charity thingo going on, and you pay money to get heart shaped balloons. guess what we did? HAHAHA make the hubbies buy the balloons for their wifes(: and laugh and laugh and laugh. okay after the super epicness.. daddy was like : EHH STACY. in a tough voice. WHICH WAS FREAKING EPIC. AND HILARIOUS. so i laughed like some shit even more with my brother. hahas okay then kimmy and i continued to cineleisure we acted like we dont know the rest. and we walked freaking fast. so we decided lets stop and wait for them. hahas and i leaned against the pole thingy acting cool HAHA.

okay so cineleisure (: we walked there, laughing even more, aww they are such cute people to hang with. hahas okays then we went to eat at pepper lunch. seating arrangements were a little awkward actually. hahas so girls sat with girls, guys with guys after all the hassle --" how usual segregation. and omt damien seriously bought me lunch what the shit?! hahaha i am paying him off, i am not what he called chris "freeloader". hahas after all he's my little twin brother! hahas and he was really sweet about it, he helped me to pour the sauce and erms when i didnt take fork and sppon he brought it for me :D aww! BUT anw. hahas then naomi (my grandpa) and i went to buy drinks yay ahhas and like my beef got burnt in the process of me buying the coke o.o hahas it tasted real horrible after that. and there were many freaking scandals during lunch.

erm gretel was being all shy with marc and stuff. okay i shall just copy and paste from facebook i am tired erms sean bought stacy lunch so it was all " AWWW " and kinda more teasing. and gretel was like " i can be marc's wife after i kill valerie" ... hmm oh and gretel and kimberly are stacy with shaun's kiddos because stacy had an affair against sean wts.OH. and when naomi told chris that he would have to "partner" gladys, he was all "NO I WANT NAOMI" o.o (: aya there are more little little scandals which are weird yet forgettable. ohh sth about gretel with marc which i dont really know what went on. whee but lunch was great (: there was alot alot of laughter that went all over, and many visits, and i almost choked on my miso soup and no i didnt finish my lunch but i'm paying for it. lol

okays continue :D we went then to book tickets. omt we tried fitting into the lift, and we thought it would overload but no! and we teased my little bro for no space but he was small enough anw. yayness :D hahahas okays then lemme think we went to get tickets.. 12 people haha i suggested we get 6 pairs of couple seats WHICH IS EPIC :D hahaha it worked out in the end i'll tell you about it later. (: okays continuing that. hahs erm we took forever to sort out money and finally YAY haha then we went to BOOK three tables omt. HAHA and damien went to buy popcorn for us yet erms.. WAY too early but still. lol his drink totally got drank by others + his popcorn was eaten by many too!(: okays there was alot of laughing in between but the best one was when stacy's leg got cramp. WOAH. HAHAHAHA everyone was super worried. in fact i heard " HER WATER BAG BURST ALREADY" wts. haha then gretel went to help out. and then daddy went to help which made me laugh like shit. didi stayed out of it, and after a while, i stayed out of the drama too (: give dada and mama private time. lol okays but in that second, i felt really really happy and blessed. i took sean and stacy as my real parents for one second, and felt, "so this is how it was like to have parents who love each other". and i was really really touched. i even almost teared. but i controlled myself. i dont know about the others and their family statuses, but for the 14 years i have been living in , i never knew how it felt. and in that little time, i actually experienced it and that was when i decided to get out of the drama before i really cried if i saw somemore.. D: thanks to the both of you <3

okay erm then the movie was the bestest thing i have ever went through. arrangment from the top : gretel with kimmy. gladys with naomi. me and damien. sean and stacy. alvin and daniel. chris and marc. HAHAHA THE BEST ARRANGEMENTS EVER. okay so when after i reserved seats specially for my parents.. we sat down, and i put my legs on daddy's chair. he didnt know. haha he put his head back., turned around and damien and i were laughing like some shit. okays that was simple beginning. then i kept throwing popcorn at daddy. once i overshot and it hit alvin. hard. haha and he scratched his head damn epic. in the whole movie i kept disturbing daddy i bet he is freaking pissed. HAHA sorry laoba D: then erm erm erm erm erm erm erm erm oh ya the kissing scenes. HAHA okays then everyone the guys in front turn around to stare at sean and stacy and then damien and i were like chanting kiss kiss kiss and making kissing noises. lol damn epic. the both of them got freaking embarassed(: AWW they are freaking cute little peeps then the last kissing scene also same. HAHAHAHA. i love this movie alot alot. and didi keeps trying to hit chris but damn epic fail. oh well lovely movie experience. thats why you should always go with different people. i watched this movie twice , and both times (Y)

then after that hang around. make more big circles out of nowhere. went to scape. ERM BIG MISTAKE. chris went to kneel in front of 987. i so dont know him. hahas i am lazy to type in detail already. ermmm then what else D: oh oh oh oh oh oh oh then go 313. take photos near the lift, kanna got erm "stalked" by security guards o.o oh wells hahas then kimmy and i left. i think the rest are still at gretel's house now. i feel damn abandoned oh well.
thanks for the awesome day people. although you'll never see this post in your whole life, do know that i still love you for the many memories you "bestowed" on me. i am thankful for everythinggggggggggggg<3 and this is like my first with-guys-experience. and i'm glad its memorable and fun enough. oh yay!(: i love everyone of you. stacy gretel kimmy gladys naomi sean damien marc daniel alvin chris in no particular order you are GREAT.

stop letting me down

2010-08-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

i'm really really really disappointed in you.
i forgiven you, but i find it very hard to face you. This is not the first time you broken your promise to me. And i am trying to figure out, whether you didnt do it because you wanted to secure your position, or whether you were just as blur as ever. But whichever one it is, I'll just let you know; you hurt me. You know how much i wanted this. You were the only person i trusted enough to know, the only person i dare muster up enough courage to tell you how i felt about this matter, and yet you were the one to cause me to lock myself inside the bathroom, crying.
this isnt the first time. and this was something that meant alot alot to me. something i was craving and working towards for a long term. YOU. in just three seconds. BLEW IT FLAT. and I dont know how come but i still love you as much. But if you ask me to talk to you right now, or if you come up to me with that goofy face of yours, i really really dont know what to do. I dont have the courage to look at you, because once i do, i may start crying when i am reminded of what you did. Yet i know that if i ignore you,You may get hurt and you may say that I am the worst person cos I am forever ignoring you. But can you please realize your mistake first? I dont want to hurt you. I dont want to hurt our friendship anymore, theres enough damage done. I want us to be happy, but if you continue with this i really cant put up a smile. I comforted you when you werent chosen, and when you were re-nominated i smiled at you. did you remember your promise to me? I'm afraid not. You let me down yet again.
My birthday is just this Friday. and because we're not having cca on tuesday, it'll be the first time we "meet again". I wonder whether you'll remember my birthday, and whether you'll remember my birthday wishes that you promised to get me. I really wonder. I trusted you, you have to earn that trust back. i know my birthday wish isnt something that you can get off the shelf. i wanted that a few months back, because i wanted effort and not money. i know its not something that can be done within a few hours. its not. but i say again, this is your last chance to make up for everything. next. even though its my birthday, i have no idea how to face you. really. everytime i think of this i feel like crying. its not the fact that i didnt get in, its the fact that you let me down, once again. i repeat i forgiven you already. i'm not angry but yes i am upset. but i have forgiven you. its abit hard to explain, but i think its best if we have a period of time we dont talk to each other. let me just think over things. if i have to come face to face with you, i may break down so please. ~~just~~ ~~stop letting me down.~~

sick

2010-08-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

again, i am sick D:
bronchitis;cough;slight fever;blocked nose;loads of phlegm;
the list goes on D:
just recovered from stomach flu, now i am suffering from lungs problems
how nice. i missed so many lessons already, i really cannot afford to miss more

yog dance fantasia

2010-08-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday makes it to my top ten nights in my life so far. it was a night where i was with all my beloved batchmates and seniors. it was a night where a performed a major dance together with them, a night where i heard the audience clap happily, a night where i felt love in the air. lets just start off from somewhere.
my friends arent exactly the most supportive of my cca. they probably look down on my cca, and making fun of chinese dance all the time. but it was last night that i realised, so what if they dont like it? candice, maybe its time you start to move their hearts and make them like it!
since LOA yesterday, we huazhuang and did our hair, i realised the meaning of friendship, and that caring is sharing. everyone shared everything we had, including our makeup, hair accessories.. we didnt care whether it was running out, we just shared, out of the love we had for each other. (okay sensitive skin is another matter) but this is just a simple example of how much we care and share! (: plus, we're always ready to help someone with their screwed makeup, or even if they are just plain lazy to do it, even if we are super rushed for time, and our makeup is even more screwed. its really touching thinking about it
okays leaving the dance studio with loads of nerves cos i scared i left sth behind D: but i didnt! and.. i saw my classmates.. mainly nichole ade christine elysia miyeon rachel cherise. they all wished me luck and i was really really touched to know that there are people out there, though they are not coming to watch me perform, they are rooting for me, and it totally took the nerves away. thanks people, for cheering me on. a simple jiayou/good luck works wonders dont you think?
okays when we reached... all this not so important. the performance was nice... yet to me it was the after perf. many seniors cried D: i didnt feel like crying till the retarded finale. because it was only then , i realised, all this would be gone. this is?

it is the fun and joy i had. it started with laoshi putting me in a position. then i realised i was next to yixian. which made me bully her and maybe grow closer to her(: then i started talking to more seniors like dilys and yijun yay. and audrey and i also started complaining each time at the rolling for xiaohongdian which slowly gave me the courage to start talking to seniors. and progressively, i grew closer to so many more seniors which really made me look forward to each cca practice. of course my awesome batchmates i grew closer to people like huayi, made it up with linda, formed the 3s with huimin and grace, did more lifts with lynn, and went out more with roujing. there were the sad times. of course. the quarrels and river of tears i had over jessica, the times when i just kept trying yet i didnt improve, the times when i got scolded very badly over and over again, when i was lonely and no one noticed. but without these, there wont be what will stay in my head : the memories.
the sec fours are leaving soon. and i am oh-so very sad. there are so many awesome seniors there, who will also support me, cheer me up, and encourage me. when i am feeling low when someone scolded me, they will give me advice, or make some joke that within seconds i will forget that i was even sad. the sec fours also have taught me alot, not just in skills in dance, but in character. they are super helpful, and recently i grew closer to a few of them, but i really dont want to leave them. time passes very fast, and i dont ever want their farewell to come. they'll be in hwachong, and even if they come back those measly times, it wont be as nice as seeing their beautiful faces in the corridors or just in the dance studio, smiling at you each cca. their leaving is really saddening, because i love them alot, and they are super precious to me. i only had like.. three same dances with them? one main performance. the same dance. yet within just five months i bonded more with them. they bring me so much laughter, yet i am given such little time left with them, to repay them, to thank them, and just to be with them. seniors are one of the things that really make me love this cca and want to go to to cca practice. i wasnt going to cry yesterday, because i didnt want to make others sad. but during finale, the thought of them not being around anymore is really really so sad i almost teared. its hard to imagine how we had so much fun in such a short period of time, and how we grew to love each other more. they make the society so much better with their talents and all, i'm really really really going to miss every single one of them, none forgotten
to my sec four seniors, jiayous in your life and ily!

perfect match.

2010-08-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

This time, i bother putting up the photo. Yes, i am done with reading Perfect Match and i think its lovely. But maybe its time for a few comparisons instead of a plain ole review. I would relate this book to two other books by Jodi Picoult; The Tenth Circle and Keeping Faith.
Before that, here's the review :D i found the whole process interesting, and this was one of the fewer books that i read by her which i had bothered reading every page. the other books were My Sister's Keeper and Keeping Faith. -this does not mean anything. i love Picture Perfect most yet i skipped a whole main part- But anyway, the whole story was really nice and interesting. I found the lawsuit pretty cool, and it was nice to read about, the interesting way the lawyers listen for words which they can twist around, the reactions to the witnesses, and what Nina -the main character- was thinking all the time.
Okay this story is about Nina Frost, she's an prosecuter who prosecutes child molesters. Yet one day her child gets molested. She kills one of the suspects, and only finds out later on that its his half brother who raped Nathaniel - her child- Caleb her husband kills the real rapist. She got a jail term which is suspended. And she can no longer practise law ever again, but be an awesome mother for her child.
I found it quite sad for Nathaniel. He keeps thinking its his fault whenever something goes wrong, and he keeps himself quiet so that nothing will happen again. He's just five, and he's really really understanding. He loves his parents alot, and the moment Nina got put in jail again, he stopped speaking and he only signs "mother" which is very sad. He's very sensible. He knows when he does something wrong, and although its not good for him as he puts the blame on himself only, even when he got raped he thinks its his fault. He tries his best in everything , and he knows how to make his parents and everyone around him happy. What a perfect child right, yet nothing is ever perfect.
Nina. i thought she's cool :D hahas the way she speaks, with confidence and words that make you really think deep.. And she really loves the people around her. She tries her best to protect her son, and maybe, just maybe, she was right in killing that guy. okays besides the fact she killed the wrong guy. but what she did was out of pure love and protection for her child. Which is why i seriously admire her. She knew from the very start that her life would probably take a roundabout when she planned to kill that guy. yet she did it. However, she thought she could control everything. no comments about that though. And she's pretty awesome in the fact that she really thought she should be punished , when she realised she killed the wrong guy. An innocent helpful guy who forgave her still. WOW. haha but i think she handled her relationships real badly. Example : patrick.
Patrick. Nina's bestfriend. He loves her, or maybe loved. maybe ever since he moved away, and the story progresses he stopped loving her. which i would feel is an absolutely sad thing. in fact, the fact that he left was the only sad thing in this whole story. Its like Picture Perfect all over again. He left because he needed to let go. He left out of love. haiz D: Okay, so Nina did commit adultery with him. But come on, they both love each other. He has done so many things for her, he knows her so well. Yet, there's no perfect ending for him D:
Caleb. I kinda pity him. As the husband of Nina, a murderer gone crazy, someone who cheated him. What a sad life. But he didnt treasure Nina well either. It was only when Patrick told him Nina climbed that 3000 miles for him, though she was super scared and could faint, he realised what a real treasure she really is. I THINK HE IS THE COOLEST IN THIS WHOLE BOOK. hahaha he went to kill the real rapist. I wonder what will happen in the end seriously omt.

Comparison. Tenth Circle : someone got raped. well yeah. its a youngster that got raped. well yeah.
Keeping Faith : it involves a mother's love for her child, and how much the mother would do for the child. and the lawsuit was really nicely fought, similar in KF.

it may not be my favorites. But its much loved <3

2010-08-06T19:43:00.002+08:00

Many nights we've prayed

With no proof anyone could hear

In our hearts a hopeful song

We barely understood

Now we are not afraid

Although we know there's much to fear

We were moving mountains

Long before we knew we could

Chorus:

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles

You can achieve

When you believe

Somehow you will

You will when you believe

In this time of fear

When prayer so often proves in vain

Hope seemed like the summer birds

Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here

My heart's so full, I can't explain

Seeking faith and speaking words

I never thought I'd say

Chorus

They don't always happen when you ask

And it's easy to give in to your fears

But when you're blinded by your pain

Can't see your way clear through the rain

A small, but still, resilient voice

Says help is very near

Chorus

yay batch 12 first outing!

2010-08-06T19:31:00.000+08:00

today was awesome awesome awesome!
except one part D: but i shall not let that get into my awesome mood (:
okays i didnt need to run cross country yay much
and i reached school slightly later. before 730 la (: yay to the dance studio! <3
okays then we danced.. and i kinda got scolded during dance. cos i was giving the super confused look, but laoshi says its the pissed look. and i wasnt pissed! D: i was just worried.. D:
and she forced me to smile D: well basically she scolded me. and for the whole day after that, she kept correcting everything about me. which is good, cos i would change! :D but felt alot of pressure, and i felt really stupid too D:but enough about that, makes me sad D:
okays okays okays then my batch went to orchard. we ate at koufu (: pepper lunch and coke ftw. then neoprints. met sec three seniors. then went to 313. shopped. coughcough. then left. wait i bought for one more day at 10 bucks yay humin ily for helping me save money. then left to take 111. and saw 8 sec fours on the bus. smiling sweetly at me. DONT YOU THINK THEY ARE STALKING ME. hahas then went home lorh :D
i am lazy to type too much. just wanna let you know how much i adore the whole nycd. be it batchies seniors juniors i love you all <3 and laoshi too ! :D

post exam joy

2010-08-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

hello earthlings out there :D
i just realised i havent blogged in ages i feel guilty! its either i blog everyday, or i dont blog until i bother to. and its not like as if my life is deprived of worthy things that should be on the blog, but aya you know what laziness does to me. it controls me. after the computer and the tv that is. which is why i should seriously blame if i really fail the blocks. but i'll get to that afterwards
okays let me just list the things i can remember D: ohh yah yitong was sick for two weeks ): poor thing lorh, she not only miss all the lessons, but she so good miss almost all the blocks. pray that she can catch up! (: she so smart, its no doubt.
hmm i remember one thing! :D we did our china thing performance already!!! D: i think i screwed up quite alot, but i enjoyed the whole time. like since the very first practice. i guess its all due to seniors and batchmates♥ so thanks people for making my first dance with my batch so enjoyable and lovely(: ohh but then i kinda kept on getting scolded cos i had to switch place with someone and then it was really complicated and then i keep on cant get there , so before the whole damn thing i was super worried D: but it turned out fine, i think (: so it wasnt ohh too bad.
okays ermm church(: i saw the guy who wrote my science textbook omm! btw omm stands for oh.my.my. hahahas okays okays so i did willing hands with stacy's group yay. and i also did fishes and loaves which were fun! oh but. our group only had three people. plus rachel left halfway--" so its kinda like wo men yue bang yue mang. in the end, i realised that i help out at the drinks counter and help and count money is still the best to everyone. hahas diluted orange juice which looks like mango juice even after tons and tons of ice is loved ♥
yupp okays ermmmm and D: eclipse! hahahas i went with roujing. its apparently my bday present ♥ as in the movie ticket. but i still spent quite a lot of money o.o hahahs okays we did camwhore.. and we kinda enjoyed the movie quite alot so yay? hahas and we ate at kfc. but yah it wasnt a trip that was planned, its was a last minute OKAY I GO that kinda thing
ohh and jessica and i had a serious heart to heart talk, and we decided what are the major problems between us. however we had had not have cca after that, so i hope things will go okay.
okays the most tensed thing here. block test 2. one word : screwed. one more word : demoralizing. the standard for the WHOLE of block test 2 is really high , especially math and history. math was plain killer, everyone on facebook agrees with me. history the questions itself was not too bad, it was the time constraints. i think in each class at most also just 15% could complete the whole paper lorh. chinese was quite worrying, but chinese is always having this weird relationship with me, when i least expect to do well/badly, it gives me that. hahaa geography. okays i thought it was okay. but miss yip went through the assignment today. and it was kinda screwed): cos i realised i made the same mistakes in the blocks.. which would lead me to minus i dunno? around 4 marks? and thats just the confirm minus away already. plus miss yip also say our class the max-min temp question we did real badly. so we're kinda screwed. and geography was the only subject i HAD confidence in like puhhlease. LA i know i screwed up too. mr.chow sorta said the expectations? and i didnt really meet any of them... but i dont really care, cos in life, its all about making mistakes and just learning from them and moving on. okay fine i admit i do care alot, its grades. but i'm just praying and praying and praying i didnt screw up TOO MUCH D:
when i asked miss yip about taking geography next year, she listed alot of very fun and interesting things we would do! and the field trips are soo much cooler than trip science like please. can climb volcano you know :D and active one somemore.. look inside and smile(: awww and and and can go maybe australia or wherever and look at the coastal areas and stuff(: i should seriously sit down and think about my options. like everyone is joining triple science and is asking me to join it too. and triple science is also more acknowledged.. yet geography is my love♥ so so so so i really dont know.
any suggestions for a confused me dear earthlings out there?

warden-ing + NYCO Concert = ♥♥♥

2010-07-18T20:20:00.000+08:00

two things this weekend, or rather, yesterday!
hmm church! hahahaa DID I TELL YOU I WAS GETTING MARRIED. omg i walked down the aisle of the church okays. next to a guy. ahahahhaa and i was wearing a ring so gang qiao.
but no i am not getting married, i did warden duty!!! ♥ so fun my gosh!
i did it with stacy's group. haha it was more fun than expected really! haha so freaky also! cos i was the first one to go down. then if i trip over something or embarrass myself somehow so paiseh right!! -this is extra but i realised i am taller than the other girls in my group wahaha beat that stacy- okays it was kinda nice and many people were so generous and kind♥ i simply love these people omg. thanks so much!!!!!
and and and and and and and and and then. CO CONCERT FTW!!! okays so i went looking damn weird but i reached there first lorh! then came chiting. then after a WHILE -coughcough- shuning the sexy came. miniskirt and highheels but yet shuning still looked short. hahaha next to me well of course! can show you pics later on facebook. then walked there. met isabelle♥ ooh ooh ooh i saw elena weiqing and siqi!!!! hahaas so cool i didnt know they were going. but yah. then we saw mrchow and miss lee! hahaa. so exciting. okays after camwhoring for a while, we settled down inside and the concert started!! omg the concert damn nice leh! the first song was awesome! we shouted " GO SYLVIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" haha then we realised omg shit how if sylvia tang thought it was for her! but sylvia later on in interval said she recognised MY voice. WAHAHA my unique voice! okays then interval. nothing much besides the fact that sylvia seah came out! (: laogong ily♥
okays second part was damn awesome too! i loved the song chinghui and yitong that two songs they were in. HAAHHAA>< I AM SO BIASED! ♥ okays here's the funny part. when chinghui's group came out, after the emcee's speech, it was really quiet. so we went " GO CHINGHUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" SUPER LOUDLY. and chinghui gave us the " what the shit are my friends doing trying to humiliate me!" look. HAHAA WHILE LOOKING FOR US. AND GUESS WHAT WE DID?! WE WAVED LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE UNTIL SHE SAW US!!!! omg super epic. hahahaha! plus we screamed so loudly even yitong the rest who were backstage heard omg. chinghui was super funny.
omg huamulan was so long. like 16 minutes?! we were all dying. literally, dying by the 8th minute. hahahaha then the three songs after that we were also half dead. it was like SUPER LATE CAN. and my mum was zhui-ing me to go home at huamulan. which was only 920?! HAHAHAA. fail. ohh in the second moon song thingy, there was this part where we would have expected the whole song to end, BUT. it started again. shuning and i were just like omg... HAHAHAHAHAHA. laughing like shit. we sound super mean right! but its cos we cant appreciate chinese music! AND it was really late so we had to get home omg. hahaha okay when the whole darn thing ended we were super happy omg!
when the whole concert officially ended and people started leaving, i went up to yitong and hugged her! she was so happy! i saw jianing too and praised her!! (: then the rest came out. omg wait chinghui. that stupid idiot right, we were like " CHINGHUI OMG HERE HERE HERE CHINGHUI" and she gave us the shocked look and totally dao us. wts. but still super funny we went to her and TRIED taking photos but she went back in! i saw claudia too! hahaha. then we sorta left, after taking photos with yitong and chinghui. jianing went back with shuning and i via MRT. reached home at 11 ):

what i had learnt that day is going to a concert where you have many friends is one of the best experiences you can ever have. you may not appreciate their art of whatever, but you are able to appreciate their hard work. i have three close friends in this concert, and three other very good friends who are also very important in my life. when i see them play, i see them smile, i know that they are happy and i feel happy for them too. i feel like some mother too, cos i felt really proud of them at the end of the whole thing!! they put in so much hard work and time, and they really did perform their best! which made me super touched. when i saw the smile on yitong's face, it really made my day. it pleased me so much to see the geniune smiles from each of their faces, as those smiles came from their hearts. they probably might have thought " omg who would have wanted to go to our concert " or sth like that, but i tell you , i did not waste a single cent on this concert or time. every single note that they played, every single smile on their faces, it made the whole thing worth it. and to all those who put in such hard work for this to happen, i thank you and i am proud and happy for you♥

2010-07-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

its only through certain things, no matter how insignificant, no matter how much time it takes, thats when you see through the colours of your friends.
excuses. do they really work in this modern world that we live in? or are we simply running away from the problems that we have created with our own two hands. if you had really meant to do it, there's no stopping you.
likewise, if you had really wanted to help me, if you had me in your mind, even time would go all out for you. but i guess i wasnt what you would consider to help.
i know we're both facing alot of problems together. i was blaming it on her. but now that i realised, its actually our fault. and the problem lies in one word : understanding. yeah i think we do understand each other, but its all in the exterior. we dont understand each other enough to know what we expect from the other, and we may try subtle hints. but that will just make us even piss-ier when we do not get what we wanted. we may just run away from it, but the problem lies, and it'll just get bigger. yet, telling each other what we want in the face, is not the easiest, as we are both afraid to hurt each other. or make the other person be disappointed in us, and think we dont understand the other at all. its a chicken and egg cycle. Of course, the positive way is to just go and tell. Yet to me, by doing that, there is only two ways everything will end. 1. You get your way. 2. You sooner or later will lose everything that you once had. And since i cant afford to get 2. i rather not risk it.
I think we both want our own freedom and privacy. but the problem is, who we want to hang out with is not exactly approved.

i dunno, i just hope maybe it'll be better when things are back to normal, and maybe it'll be nice living in non-reality. again.

2010-07-12T20:39:00.001+08:00

PENPAL.
I WANNA GET A PENPAL.
like doesnt have to be from overseas. ):

happiness flowing :D

2010-07-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

I was in such a great and awesome and happy mood yesterday!
like the whole day!
okays i woke up unhappily cos i really really wanna sleep even more ):
But, i still dragged myself out of bed. and i wasnt late :)
Caught the bus which was so awesome. haha i almost missed it leh ):
okays then reached school. found out many many more didnt do LA. REJOICED :D
hahaha then blahs school went passed! okays from here i would like to apologise to shuning, chiting, sylvia, jianing, and huihui ): sorry if i made life difficult for you in your math presentation! i'm really sorry D:
omg okays then school was awesome. and LA poem thing was extended. till monday.
i am super delighted and high by then
omg then dance lesson. i watched the seniors dance qinghuaci and qianhong. and i fangirled like shit. hahas seems like most classmates thought this :qinghuaci is very elegant and beautiful
( and the seniors dancing it were all so pretty, which i agreed!!! :D ), qianhong is very organised and cool. hahaha cool. how often is that used for chinese dance. hmm.
okays anw still at dance lesson. hahaa laoshi put me all the way at the back! hopefully she'll notice me less. wahahahaa. ohh but we went to the bar and i love nichole (: she's so much fun!!!
anw the time passed more! and chinese was kinda suckish and i didnt really listen but who the hell cares. paiseh
YAY DANCE CCA! one of the things that made me the happiest of the happiest <3
okays i went there feeling sad though. firstly, i lost my dance tee ): secondly, i wasnt there on thursday and she made major changes to hujihua . and i was confused about everything made me very sad. like later how if i cannot catch up leh??! oh noo ): that was what i was thinking.
luckily for me , i have awesome batchmates and seniors! they went through one by one everything with me which made me absolutely delighted! laoshi in the end also went through bit-by-bit so i wasnt confused, and i kinda got it! i am so happy :)
okays before laoshi came, we did our stretching larh. and .. i was working on my totally not flexible legs. and i could do my right leg middle split which made me happier. and my middle split, i am working on it i mean it! my left leg, still cant go down , but i will, by.. october. i promise. while everyone else is getting more and more flexible, i cant afford to go any stiffer. so i will jiayous, i wont expect to be like stupid huimin who is so freaking flexible -i lubb you huimin- but yah (: anyways, i caught up, and laoshi said my cemian is nice :D which made me happy!
but thats not what made me the happiest! oh yah i almost forgot, the older seniors came back! and they said really nice things, which made me super happy. but thats still not it. what i am delighted at is that : CCA ENDED EARLY! ON A FRIDAY! and when i got out everything was so bright and nice!! :DD
ohh wait i forgot to mention that the sec four seniors were all really nice and kind to me too! okays vanessa totally told a lie. she said i am the nicest candy or sth like that. LIAR. ahahha i believed that for 2 seconds! but then i was like PFFT. hahahas audrey was super nice too~! we kept laughing. and laoshi also did the transition to hongbai part, which we had to keep rolling and rolling. which made the two of us go : UGH. but ^^
omg i love dance. and i love my life. thank you God, for giving me such a nice life, for giving me food, for giving me a roof to live in, for giving me everything that i'll ever need, for letting me get into this awesome school , this awesome class, and the bestest cca ever with all the freaking nice seniors, batchmates and juniors <3
YAY HAPPY HAPPY MOOD :D

yay dance~

2010-07-10T12:06:00.001+08:00

Dancing is the loftiest, the most moving, the most beautiful of the arts, because it is no mere translation or abstraction from life; it is life itself.

omg i love this (: and dance <3
and my sweet juniors, my awesome batchmates, my crazy seniors and just plain ole nycd <3

020710

2010-07-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

hello to all other earthlings (:
(i like the word earthlings! :DDD )
okays today was quite cool!
it was youth day celebrations
so it was also "be yourself day!" ♥
206 had a black,red,and white theme
trust me, i doubt anyone knows whats the theme about.
haha many classes did a)geek b)pajamas
aish i still think our cross-dressing idea is like the best.
but super sians --" the teacher rejected
ohhh but there was one class damn cool leh!
their theme is mimes leh. soo cool the face paint ♥
okays then anw it was quite cool and we missed art which is like the awesomest thing ever since i havent done my art homework yay!
hmm then it was cca !
which i had my contacts on
so cool but my vision abit the blurred
we wore makeup
but just mascara, lipstick, and eyebrow.
for photos.. YOU THINK SO WULIAO WEAR AH.
hahaha
okays my mascara sucks lorh! it doesnt curl or what.
but i think my eyes are damn itchy cos like i shared mascara
i used grace's mascara. which is the same brand
but it curls up like crap;. and lengthens like shit too.
hahaha if i wore specs my eyelashes would probably "overtake" already.
then the costume. abit the gek la. i tore the glitter thingy off ):
and i didnt get up for one part. shits la thanks to the darn longggness ):
but yay today is awesome.

♥for the love of all♥

2010-07-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm i'm back like after ages!
okays announcement :
NYCD ♥
SENIORS ♥
BATCHMATES ♥

hahas no particular order, all are like soo frigging awesome (:
the YOG dance is looking better and better, though i think i am very gek.
hmm i got my contacts! but had a horrible accident today.
my eyes almost got infected. yupp it is THAT serious.
hahah anw!
yay okays so besides the fact that almost all the seniors are nice to tease and bully,
i cant wait for beijing! ♥
okays jessica is being as toot as ever
and huimin as flex as ever
lynn as smart as ever
grace as cheerful as ever
melissa as LAME as ever
roujing as bubbly as ever
and the rest are all being as NICE AS EVER
(needless to say, i am like the best. harh)

okays so a bigger problem came out
its sorta quite serious
and its pretty much blown up
i hope things will get better asap though i will not rush things
i will pray for it

2010-06-26T10:41:00.000+08:00

oh right, fine. force it out of me if you want to
i'll admit it, yeah i am jealous of you.
are you happy now? good.
i would never ever be able to do what you have done
and i'm glad you accomplished this much;
but seriously?
do you have to do that? you digust me now you know
i thought i knew you, but i was just lying. to myself
you're such a flake.
i guess me thinking that we were friends was just a dream
now, its turned to a nightmare
and if i could do anything about it, i rather have stayed the way we were
i rather be sad and think everything is my fault
then let you take over the life i have.
wait, its a had.
stealing what i used to have, maybe its my punishment
-claps- you done your job well
just to let you know, a week ago ,we were the closest of the closest
now, i dont even want to see your face anymore.
congrats (: when you returned to earth, let me know darl

yet another day

2010-06-25T17:52:00.000+08:00

today wasnt as bad as i had pictured it.
in fact, it was kinda fab (:
okays so i finished my history finally in the morning
ily isabelle
and then i went out with mummy to shaw centre to get my eyecheck appointment
hmm we went to eat first cos the person only comes at a certain time
pepper lunch ftw <3
i ate like this really big summer special meal
there was nice wagyu beef, chicken with loads of fats <3 , corn , beansprout, rice, miso soup, and pepsi!
it was quite reasonable leh the price!!! :D
yum yum yum
okays then we were quite early
so we went shopping!
hahas okays i reserved two dresses for the wedding... ^^
and then. the appointment...
it was quite freaky, and i was praying my degree didnt go up.
well it did, by 25 so very little
and its only the right eye not left. YAY :D
hahah then the contacts thingo..
okays the first time i put it on, i felt this burning sensation which was gone within like three seconds
and then my eyes started tearing. walao i felt so stupid i cant even control my own eyes
and then i was not used to no specs and yet good vision.
hahahs and i swear. i look disgusting without my specs.
okays then went back shopping ! yay i got my two dresses and mother got something else..
then errrrrrrrrrrrr. go URS? and i bought the wedding shoes..
done lorh (:
now i'm home. and i have to bathe. and endure my brother(s)
jiayous candice (:

the past week.

2010-06-20T14:10:00.000+08:00

wahaha okays this is a purely random post since i havent, like updated since forever.
so i shall tell you all about my third week of holiday, which is very busy yet highly enriching.
( btw, i still havent finished half of my homework.)
monday :
okays i posted about it already..
and all the sad feelings about NOT BEING ABLE TO WATCH the two movies
but oh wells :D
tuesday:
it was the most boring day of the week, but yet i had fun! XD
it was just studying at home, but i learnt the joy of ecology.
no kiddings. hahas
wednesday:
hmm linda came over to my house for a ... study session?
yeah well. hmm we did study and do some work :D
she did her trig worksheet ( which i gaoding alr ) so i did my biology revision.
at around 5/6 we started slacking.
ahha and camwhoring.
on. my bed.
okays i will post the pictures on facebook.
hmm then dinner time! so awesome got sweet and sour chicken like finally.
hahas then people came home
we started eating bananas. serious.
haha then she finally went home at like.. 945??!
haha we wanted sleepover lorh (:
so fun! but no space la my house >.<
okays ermmm thursday
started off with tuition early in the morning.
ergh sians -.- okays then linda came over again!
hahas we did our history.
half of it.. haha i am finishing it today (:
i hope.. well I MUST DO IT TODAY OR I AM DEAD><
okays friday.. hmm laoshi came back! finally (:
hmm lalalala then we went to linda's house
to bake!
we found this "never fail" chocolate chip cookie recipe
which was like.. a huge huge huge batch
we made at least 90 cookies D:
and omg i discovered my love for brown sugar
it makes the cookies crisp and yummy!
<3 hahas okays baking took very long but it was pretty much awesome.
hmm then linda cooked macaroni for jess and me.
yum~ hahas then we went to INSPIRE concert
linda and i made up this song about jessica. heheh.
okays when we reached, shaole took out my wallet from my bag and stole 10 bucks claiming i want 6 packets of candyfloss.
i waslike NONONONONO. but in the end i still bought -.-
byebye 5 bucks... hahaaa ~!
okay the concert was quite nice :D
and yixian was sitting with thousands of boys. ooooo.
hahas during interval. we realised that candyflosss price went down. to one dollar per "bucket"
it was two dollars at first.
I FELT SO CHEATED
hahaha
okays but i admit, in the end i still bought it. ERGH CANDICE ><
and i waited at least dunno how long for 74. eeks.

2010-06-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

hmm yesterday was superb!
it started from cca though :]
okays so. erm turns out laoshi didnt come.
and there was no music
so we used some really weird and funny music to do bagan
then qinghuaci for shengyun?!
hahas it was damn funny lar.
omg for bagan i so long never use middle bar already, so weird.
and it was shakey shakey shakey oh~
omg being damn gay now so hahaha D:
okays then after cca which we learnt qian hong and my fingers were aching with struggling with the fan,
huimin,jessica,melissa,linda and i went to KAP on 171
okays when we were on the track, roujing called
and after a while i passed the phone to huimin
who was mean but i kept laughing at her
hahas she's so cute my gosh dahuimin ily!
okays then she did the funniest thing to pass it to jess by going "Nar Jessica now its your turn!"
hahahaa! so funny lorh! XD
okays then jessica passed it to mel
who eventually passed it to linda
who went oh so ego
and then hung up on her.
of course. she called me back.
and she said she was joining us from coro.
when we reached KAP
i was super high, huimin high but getting lower, the rest were just (:
why is this so typical.
okays then after we settled down, i received another sms from roujing that the seniors are coming!
hahas okays so we were like " ahh where can they sit?!"
then i dunno what but they came.
o.o roujing seemed a little peeved but yeah.
then i went over to make fun of yixian again!
hahaha yay so fun lorh! okays but she was like "i didnt want to see you here"
rawr. hahas yay by then i was like SUPER HIGH.
the rest were just like -.-
how typical can. walao. okays so the funny things started coming, each of us were like telling our own stories
and jessica for once didnt get teased much!
omg i loved my fingers joke that melissa stole!
hahaha.
HOW MANY FINGERS ARE THERE ON ONE HAND
nope not five!
four fingers and one thumb! hahas~
okay sorry i am lame.
okay after kap. we went to busstop. where jessica and i and linda was headed to jess's house.
and I SAW YIXIAN AND DILYS AT THE BUSSTOP AND THEY WERE RELIEVED WE DIDNT SEE THEM BUT I DID!
hahas so i rushed over. and harassed them more
you have no idea how delighted and relieved they were when their bus came.
o.o okays then we went on the bus, where i embarrased myself even more -.-
and walked to jessica's house,
almost going into courts FOR THE AIRCON.
hothothot.
hmm then we went to her house which is so awesome <3
and titanic and my sisters keeper just totally hated us so we didnt watch it
instead we drew on marshmallows
little monsters!
and we camwhored.
well. linda and i camwhored. jessica stayed away -.-
HAIZ. then linda and i went home lorh.
hahaha so boring huh. nahhhhh there was a lot of laughter in between
and linda kept claiming " MY BOOB MY BOOB"
cough cough.

life lessons

2010-06-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

i'm not going to care about her anymore
after all, not everyone loves everyone.
thats just simply the world we live in
we cant expect everyone to just love and adore us
everyone has enemies and friends
quoting from the philosopher-to-be
" ignore those people, after all, your friends will remind you what you really are"
there are people who will treasure you
and people who want you dead
like seriously -.-
dont waste your time trying to make everyone love you
just simply use that time to appreciate and reciprocate the love for those who loves you
treasure them
people talk about people all the time
if its good, dont let it go to your head, and improve on it to make it the best
if its bad, reflect and change
i read an article about self doubt recently
and it really helps i guess
:D
nobodys perfect though everyone expects the people around them to be perfect
live each day like its your very last day on earth
would that make a difference?
maybe some of you would say " wahh last day, of course dont study la~! go have fun!"
but if it was my last day here on earth
i would not sleep.
i would study, dance, hang out with my family and friends, and pray
you can never go back to the past
you cant even go back to one second before
what you can do, is to appreciate the present, and pray for the future
we all want our lives to be smooth-going
maybe if you take a step back, see what you have, compare it to others, you are lucky
you have food to eat, you have a roof over your head, you have clothes to wear.
is it really worth your time complaining whether the food is disgusting?
is it really worth your time complaining how small and squeezy your house is?
is it really worth your time complaining how out of fashion your clothes are?
well, its human nature to do those examples. we all do. it may not be those examples but its something like that
you're an alien if you dont complain.

never ever not believe in yourself
around you there are always people who loves you
you're never alone, no matter what you do
there are always people who are worse off than you
people who are suffering from inside and outside
love yourself, and others will love you too
remember, you are to be filled with love
if you are suffering, dont hide it
its not worth
that "face" of yours. what does it really matter
people dont pity you, they are concerned about you
let them into your life, and it makes a difference

note : this post is not meant to be offensive, or is it directed to any particular person.

2010-06-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

summer school is getting more .. fun i guess?
though the biasness level is UP.
-.- i am so freaking sore.
and tired
but DANCE IS MY PASSION SO ITS OKAY
:DDDDD
my mum and miss lee wasted their money on buying tickets
thank goodness i didnt buy the dvd
so waste.

ballet is terrible
but my posse turn i can do double! :D
I LUP ME

lyrical
i keep forgetting steps
i bet she hates me

jazz
awesome but so tiring.
jazz is freaking.. glamorous. :D

first day of summer school

2010-05-31T20:45:00.000+08:00

one day. four hours.
thats all it took to make my spirit go down down down
summer school.. i love summer school
but. i hate the level i am in right now
why? cos i am like the lowest grade.
there are freaking lower majors and SOTA people there
who are so flexible and they can handle millions of pirouettes.
yeaphs my ego just totally bursted
cstd should like just let you go according to your grade
and not mix you all up
it took 15 minutes for me to realise why i really didnt want to go back after that time in summer school though i had a discount

ballet was quite nice..
until it got to the "girls, you all can do double pirouettes right?" =.=
then she said the exercise.
and then those people just did their double pirouettes like its the easiest thing in the whole wide world
i was like what.the.hell.
and just did a nice little single.
hahas i am suddenly so proud of myself
but yeah.
anw the ballet teacher is very kind..
but still.

lyrical
gosh the warmups are killers
it was nice and slow at the start
then it got to the "flexibility" part
i just wanted to run to the damn toilet
and hide.
but it wasnt too bad..
okay until the damn spins
which yes, yours truly could not handle
i was freaking giddy.
the sota girl was damn pro
she EVEN DID TRIPLES OKAY.
she practically has a fan club now.
-.- but i have to admit, she's freaking good
if i could be her standard.. haiz.
btw, we're doing lyrical for our performance
to some miley cyrus song >.<
but yeah..
i think the dance shouldnt be too bad
besides the fact that i was so lousy i should go all the way to the back row
my mother wasted her money buying a ticket

jazz
the most anticipated.
okays we skipped warmups. phew~!
then we did all sorts of jetes.
it was okay at the start
but it got more and more challenging
i decided : summer school is just time for the good ones to show off, and the bad ones ( where i belong to ) to lose face and make the good ones more outstanding
ohh but the dance to the jazz was really cool
glamorous or sth like that the dance
but it was freaking fast
and she taught us damn fast too
its like three times faster than normal
or maybe 2.5 times
but you get the whole damn point

yes thats the first day of summer school for someone like me.
but HEEHEEE GUESS WHAT?
i wasnt the worst.
( oh my, i feel damn mean saying this. )

handle with care

2010-05-29T21:18:00.003+08:00

thats right, i just read handle with care. finally. i didnt want to read it since forever , because after i was done with vanishing acts, picture perfect, change of heart.. i didnt dare do read handle with care. i was afraid of the impact it would do to me. i know, it does sound stupid and childish right, as in after all, its just a book. yet, do you dare say nothing similar to these events ever happen? do you dare to admit no one suffers? i guess the only reason why i am so heavily affected by jodi picoult's books is because firstly, they are not fictional, and secondly, i know how to sympathize with the characters in the book. but thats not all. i empathize with them. i put myself in their shoes. i understand them, i see how would i view it if it were to happen to me. ( stupid tkam caused this ). of course, i cant possibly imagine myself suffering from brittle bone disease, i dont know how it is like to be abused by a husband, and i have never murdered someone. that doesnt mean i cant feel the pain they went through. of course not fully. but, the feeling of losing a loved one. it is one of the things i pray that i wont experience.
handle with care, is like my sister's keeper's cousin. they are relatively similar, yet very very different. the whole time, i empathized with amelia and charlotte the most. the rest i didnt have the energy to do so. jodi picoult made me rethink what i believed in. there were many quotes that left me thinking, that i had to agree with, that were just the unspoken lines i always wanted to say. before saying anything, let me ask you, if you chose to stop a loved one's suffering - either before it began or during the process - was that murder, or mercy?
hmm book review time. this is of course one of the more complicated books i have ever read, and also the thickest? but yet not draggy, and it was easy to understand. everything breaks. some things just hurt more than others. osteogenesis imperfecta. wow. do you know what that is? its a severe form of brittle bone disease that is very rare. yet it happened on willow. to me, willow is an adorable child, who really understands everything. she craves for her mother's love, but yet her mother loves her too much. can you even love someone too much? can you miss someone you dont even know? you can. its not something you can measure. i can imagine you thinking now, " lol, you're just a 13 year old kid. how much do you really understand?". maybe, maybe i really dont understand, but at least i am trying. willow doesnt complain when she is hurt. have you ever broken any bone? yeah it hurts like shit right? well, she breaks them so often. it hurts the same. she doesnt even cry. sometimes, when she breaks a bone, and she is worried about others worrying about her, that she doesnt even tell. she hides her pain so that others would be happy. i admire her for that.
charlotte. charlotte is a loving mother. She loves her child alot. just like the mother in my sisters keeper. they both have a child who isnt exactly the HEALTHIEST child. in fact are the special needs children. however, to me , charlotte is a bad wife. she is too busy being the perfect mother that she thinks piper is, or at least the perfect mother for willow, sometimes she hurts her husband in the process. a mother's job.. hao xin ku a! each time willow breaks a bone, i think she breaks something too. her heart. why did she want this lawsuit? yes, to provide a better future for willow. yes because she loves willow. but to me, why she did it is because she felt it was her responsibility that willow is like that, each time willow breaks, she thinks its her fault. why? because she probably hadnt watched out well. because she wanted the baby. because she was the one who summoned willow into the world. with the disease. its not her fault actually, she wasnt a carrier. but still, willow wouldnt have been like this - or rather ever existed - if she didnt want the baby. i am not pushing the blame to her. but the lawsuit started because deep down, charlotte wanted to push the blame to piper. between you and me, charlotte would never abort willow no matter what. she will miss her. yes, she doesnt know who willow is when in her womb. but there will always be this thing thats missing from her. unfinished is the word she used. how could you ever forget something that was inside you? how? no one is ever that heartless i believe. this is what charlotte said : things break all the time. promises break. hearts break. the world is crumbling under us; its the solid ground beneath our feet that's an illusion. love wasn't about sacrifice, and it wasnt about falling short of someone's expectations. by definition, love made you better than good enough; it redefined perfection to include your traits, instead of excluding them. things that break - be they bones, hearts or promises - can be put back together but will never really be whole. ( okay those did not come together, its from here and there )
amelia. the sister keeper here. i think her parents ( except charlotte at the end ) does not really understand her. what almost made me cry was this line by her " no you're not. you're just glad it wasn't something else that happened to willow. That's all you ever care about, You want to know why i cut? Because it hurts less than of this. " that just shows almost everything. She feels inferior. her mother is too busy loving willow. amelia, is the person i symphatized with the most in the whole book. she wanted to be loved, to be appreciated for the person she is, she didnt want to disappoint. yet she has this thinking that everyone is disappointed by her. thus she acts like that person. when they had to choose a nice restaurant to eat, she chose macs. just when everyone gives her the chance to be better, she doesnt. because she thinks that she is already like.. WORST. amelia goes all out to protect willow too. she loves willow alot and is trying to learn from willow all the time. at first i didnt really like amelia. what made me start to really admire her was her love for willow. when willow is crying, amelia blasts her music. how do you feel when i said that? maybe you think amelia is so uncaring so bad? you're wrong. it was because amelia thinks she cant do anything to stop the pain willow is feeling, and she hates herself for that, so she needs the distraction. if you feel that she is just running away from reality, maybe. but its because she loves willow a lot too, but she doesnt love herself enough. >< her self doubt sort of made me doubt myself too. gawd. she is like anna + jesse. sad ><
the rest of the characters.. i dunno la. everyone is affected somehow or somewhat. i really hope piper and charlotte will become friends one day.

this is an awesomely sad book.it didnt make me cry, but the impact is almost more than my sisters keeper in the sense that it made me think about many many things. jodi picoult, you accomplished your job for this book :D
things break, but they can never be what they were before. thus, handle with care.

2010-05-29T11:38:00.002+08:00

i'm exhausted and drained

quote

2010-05-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

when everyone walks out, a friend walks in

2010-05-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

today was great!
i spent $100.10
but. i dont regret!!
i just feel guilty la.
but i save for five months already..
i finally got my dream headphones!!
everything i bought except food was either on offer or i had discount! i know, i am an awesome & amazing shopper

okay lemme list down what i bought:
green dress/long shirt $10
yellow flat shoes $10
mosturizing hair spray $3.95
new look grey dress $18.90
soup spoon soup $6.90
coke light $2.10
old chang kee food $2.50
mum's present
headphones <3 $39.55

i cant think of anything else
but i tell you, chiting spent at least 300 bucks kay
when she went sephora
she bought this make up set for 59
and this tiny tube of i dunno what for 69.
OMG.
i know, rich people arh.. terrible
hahas she loves new look like shit.
i like their style but its not my fav shop
because their sizes have a major problem with me.
-.-
fox espirit gap gingersnaps cottonon forever21 mango target
these are more me.hahas :D
cos i can find size lorh
i wont tell you for which ones i am still looking at kids section cos its too embarassing
ITS SO HARD to find clothes for me
one of the reasons why chiting spent so much more than me is also because she can find clothes for many things but i cant thanks to stupid sizes.
i am too tall for somethings and too skinny for others.
so ridiculous
but i fit skinny long dresses nicely!
which i tell you chiting would be jealous of.
HMPH.
did i mention i love far east plaza now?!!
the clothes/shoes there are so frigging cheap and suitable
of course, they dont update their stock very often
but still!!!
hahas its so worthwhile. and its perfect cos at my age i keep growing
so if i keep buying branded stuff very ke si since after a while cannot wear already
D:

btw did i mention how much isabelle loves <3 bata?? hahas!

report book disaster

2010-05-28T10:49:00.000+08:00

argh report book marks.
sucks ttm.
plus that stupid jessica got like a mg of 1.17
i frigging hate her.
no actually i still love her and i am happy for her, but i got too low to celebrate it for her -.-
coincidentally, linda and i got the exact same marks, same percentage, but different msg.
SAME MARKS OK.
how "easy" is that.
its half a year of work in total ok.
so freaky
haha
aya then isabelle also got like so damn high
i dont care, next time, everything except chinese and maybe science
i am frigging gonna beat isabelle.
YOU HEARD THAT ISABELLE
I DARE YOU TO TAKE UP THIS CHALLENGE
hahas D:
i cant believe i got the same as last year leh
but thank goodness its only 20%
i can still mug and go for it.
JIAYOU CANDICE :D

shop. again. tmmr.

2010-05-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

yay shopping trip tmmr!! :D

i want to buy :

t-shirts ( chiting and i are buying identical ones )

a pair of shoes?

my HEADPHONES.

gawd they are long-awaited.

and food from old chang kee~~

and stuff i see from here and there.

i bet you, chiting will buy more things than me

and most of my things will be crap things.

-.-

heehee

2010-05-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

thanks for answering to my wishes
dearest friendship i cant believe you came back!!! :D

i am in journey thru the geo world sabbaticals now btw
its break, i am not that rebellious
isabelle is busy restaurant city-ing =.=
she is addicted and totally thankful to me for teaching her how to cheat
i know, you're welcome.
chinghui is youtube-ing i think.
saying so cute half the time
probably SOME guy.
and now she is saying its so wrong and she doesnt want to watch already
but she is still watching i think.
jessica is still away
coming back today!!
i miss her so much >.<
finally someone to talk to tmmr.
tmmr going out. wahahaha.
with chiting
to shop
wahaha.

long awaited 6 outing.

2010-05-26T22:41:00.001+08:00

omg today was quite nice : D
i had fun!!
we were watching robin hood at plaza sing.
haha after catching 174 ,which we sat upstairs back row
isabelle ( at the start only ) , yitong , chinghui and i were all high
me most obviously
cherise abit low.HAHA but still comical.
then rush to gv taking the escalator ( its torture )
and bought ROBIN HOOD TICKETS :D
aww..
okays then eat.
yitong and i went to carrefour
after walking the whole two botton levels
we found carrefour sushi counter
with isabelle there
though she left later. ARGH.
hahas. but yayness sushi
i found a great bargain. !!
and then went to yoshinoya to buy set meal - me only
5 bucks student meal with drink
awesomeness~~~
after eating - weiting was slower though she started way earlier
everyone said " I DONT WANNA SIT NEXT TO CANDICE" -.-
i felt offended at first but yeahs.
then walk around lorh
daiso, yamaha, comic connection
when we got to daiso which was at 4, chinghui and i separated from the rest
they abandoned us.
we were buying some awesome bag thingo!
$1 for 11, so hua.
hahas, then i called cherise yitong and isabelle all never pick up
cherise even cancelled my call
chinghui and i were like -.- aya used to it already la
they are probably laughing at us.
okays the movie
AWESOMENESS><
i sat with chinghui and isabelle!!
the best people to ever sit with gosh
haha we were making comments ( me and isabelle )
and isabelle kept laughing at the horny parts
weiting was super interested
yitong and cherise just looked amused
chinghui and i - COVER FACE AND TRY TO PEEK NOW AND THEN
hahaha!
the whole story change leh!
its like topsy turvy
but its still nice! :D
lup lup lup
hahas the sexual references were a bit EEKISH
but the storyline quite okay la
i was busy fangirling over will scarlet <3 , friar tuck <3 , little john <3 , allen <3
AHH AWESOMENESS
AND THAT WOMAN IS ICE QUEEN LA I TELL YOU.
FOR SURE.
EXACT SAME LONG FACE AND HAIR
gawd.
but she's awesome la
haha the fighting scenes were very fierce to watch
i was scared i had to admit.
when that guy was killed..
walter!
i was so sad.
he's plain awesome and old
84 or sth
worse than ah ma.
I LUP YOU RIP.

then i waited with cherise for 18 minutes -.-

2010-05-25T20:14:00.000+08:00

你难道不知道我是真地爱着你吗？
对于这些事我是不会开玩笑的。

ignore those moments of thoughts up there.

here's my wishlist :

headphones
ipod
water bottle
nike school bag
more shoes
CDs
more time
GO SHOPPING SOON.
you

okay there is more but i cant remember.

my heart will go on

2010-05-23T18:39:00.001+08:00

hahas i am totally in holiday mood already
I AM HAPPILY WATCHING BAI QUAN NV WANG :D
its so awesome!!!
hahas... and hilarious (:
clement korkor gave me his old ipod nano.
its kinda erm.. slow, scratched and spoilt.
and 2GB only.
but its better than nothing!! :D YAY !
so now i can go buy my headphones on wednesday
i realised that maybe all i wanted is my headphones
and something else..
but woots music here i come!
i already loaded fearless and love stories and disney inside.
D: i want emo love from jessica
did i mention that my favorite song of the week is
my heart will go on
plus everyone ( well, almost ) knows it
and the lyrics are meaningful
and the tune is catchy
and the notes are impossible
and .. the thing about the song is
it may be ancient and old
but everyone still loves it no matter what.

okays i still love right here waiting for you
jessica <3
i'm not just up to normal pop songs or whatsoever
yeah its cool
but i follow my own trend.

thou have flown away

2010-05-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

towards you now, i am simply filled up with regret.
i shouldnt have done it
things would have been SO much better w/o me doing anything
maybe it would be best.
now its simply awkwardness, tension, and courage that is never enough.

dearest friendship, where have thou flown to?
i need you, and i miss you.
do come back.

acts again

2010-05-21T20:39:00.000+08:00

everyone has a job.
and it is acting.
yet only some of us get paid for it.
how ironic.

everyone acts in life.
to make people happy, to make themselves happy, to hurt people, to hurt themselves
they act subconsiously and consciously
one of the other reasons why people change is thanks to this
they act so much that they do not know themselves anymore

alex cant even speak much words by himself
he uses words that other people used to speak out his life
he wants to tell others how he really feels
but its almost impossible

sometimes i wonder, why arent you paid?
you are such a great actress.
who are you btw?
and what role are you acting as this time round?
when you are done with it,
i like my friend back please.

yeah, i act too.
after all, i still belong to the human race
but at least i havent lost myself
you have taken a 180 degree turn
i know you are there deep inside
return.

2010-05-19T22:14:00.001+08:00

bad mood today, i wonder why.
psl duty rocks though
busy, but kept my mind off things.

2010-05-17T19:53:00.000+08:00

lalalaa.
actually i wasnt totally EXCITED for today's cca..
after all we are doing it in auditorium
and its a monday~~
my rare free day of the week.

but when i got to cca, AWESOMENESS.
hahaa i am having loads of fun "irritating" yixian.
yixian is very nice to tease, and her annoyed look is pretty amusing too!!
plus she is the kind that wont hate you or like overly gossip about you
<3
anw, i think i did do a great job of annoying her today..
hahaa XD
elaine and i are super dramatic :D
and yay sixian is helping me deliver my letter :D

aww the power of seniors .. :D

WHO IS THAT SENIOR AT MY TAGBOARD. I AM SCARED><

16.05.10

2010-05-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

today was uber fun!!! :DD
i went over to miyeon's house after church today
thanks sis for fetching me.
after moments of hesitating of entering, i mustered enough courage, and charged into the condo.
i hate the security guard -.- haha so mean.
then i waited for christine who came down shortly after and brought me to the function room.
we had a bit of a problem with the security and stuff.. but it was settled.
thanks to the "awesome" hot weather, christine and i went out barefooted
TO THE SWIMMING POOL in our clothes.
haha i rolled up my long pants
(which still got soaked -.- )
we went to the kids pool and baby pool
and happily roamed around
we even did run devil run
and raced each other
which proved to be a bad idea thanks to the water..
christine had this theory :
when people are cold, they put their hands around the fire
now that we are hot, we go put our hands on the waterfall.
HAHA. after adventuring from pool to pool
we spotted miyeon coming in 0.0
so we rushed out of the water and acted all innocent
haha elysia was there too!
they realised we were wet, and wondered what we had been doing the whole time.
teehee..
okays so filming started.
erm scout and jem..
we wore winter wear.. SO HOT KAYS.
i wore like two layers with a scarf around me and acted like i was freezing.
okays happily playing with the snow
and elysia was happily spraying snow from above.
haha! miyeon and her mum said we look very cute
i highly doubt it.
haha then link deas.
OHH NOO.that was me.
okay after making me do a centre parting
which took a long time..
i finally look more like a guy
of course i cant since i have girlish features but still.
so i wore my black mango tee over my other mango tee
and then i wore a suit..
which is black too.
CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW HOT IT IS.
okay then i acted as link deas.
which was okay, cos i only needed two takes and i didnt laugh.
..

THE FUN PART IS HERE :D
tom robinson scene. gosh
okay, elysia was tom. i was the person pushing her into jail and yet protecting her from pesky reporters, christine was the PESKY REPORTER and miyeon camera man.
hahahaa super funny!!!
okays so while pushing elysia down the stairs, christine came out asking her " Mr. Robinson, how do you feel about ..." i would say " No comment." then push her into jail and protect her.
sounds boring horh?
THATS NOT IT.
in each shot, we would laugh our heads off no matter what.
firstly, on the way down, elysia would start smiling.. heehee
then christine would ask her questions
and i would answer no comment.
which was really weird and funny
plus christine was giving the "i am going to laugh but i am controlling it" look.
so i start to laugh.
then christine would laugh
then miyeon would laugh
hahaha!

there were shots where i had a catfight with christine at the doors,
there were shots where miyeon got pushed into the "jail"
there were shots where we would just start laughing out of nowhere
there were shots where christine would hit elysia's boobs.
hahahahaa SUPER FUNNY LAARH.

the whole time we were laughing.
watch the video also laugh.
HAHHAHAHAHAA I LOVE YOU PEOPLE TTM.

omggggg christine lipstick ad is... pure awesomeness.
i would be the first to buy the lipstick to support you christine.

HAAHHAHAA <3

group arrangements

2010-05-16T19:43:00.000+08:00

i think i am so blessed sometimes.
you know for like group projects and blahs
its always draw lots to be fair right
and my groups are always awesomest.
like, they may not be the MOST smart or chiong group,
or the ones that does not require me to do work.
but they are the friendliest, most cooperative people i can ever work with.
like i shall list one by one.
LSC - chinghui. chinghui is like the only one who is willing to do stupid things with me, to wait for me, and that will go mad with me.
Three ppl group - chinghui and isabelle. isabelle makes sure we do our work and always rushes us ( how poor thing ). she is smart too. chinghui is artistic and outgoing making life so fun.
four people (LA) group - miyeon, christine, elysia. omgg this group rocks. haha miyeon makes sure we finish the work early, and makes sure everything is organised and well. she also is good with design. christine is hilarious with random ideas and liven up the whole process. she is also good with technology and words. elysia is funny and she also usually goes on the same wavelength with me for ideas.

a few years down the road
we arent going to remember that we failed that assignment, or that we scored full marks.
what we are going to remember is the fun times we had in the process of the assignment.
what we are going to remember is how we fooled around and yet were so serious
what we are going to remember is simply all the moments we had together.

jiayous

2010-05-14T19:49:00.000+08:00

i just realised how many of my posts are drafts
haha i realised i still dont dare to "reveal" it to the world.
well, of course i cant let YOU STALKERS know too much about me.

okays anyway, i wasnt here to crap about this.
i was just saying,
it is pure fate and destiny.
or maybe, just the power of God.
now, i am just going all for it
and leave it in His hands.
i know God would want us back together too
thanks for creating all those chances
i will go for it!

if only.

2010-05-13T17:53:00.000+08:00

oh joy
exams are screwed.
haha! okay, but i have to admit, those that i realy did mug my heart and almost my brain out, i did score quite okay.
of course, i mugged for all, but i mugged MORE for some.
D: i should have mugged more and more and more.
now my MSG is super high. ( in the not good sense.)
shucks.
okay lets go through everything .
science : didnt study very much, had confidence in chemistry, thought can score quite okay. results come out? B4. freak. i know it sucks, dont look down on me.
LA : well, it wasnt OH SO AWESOME. but compared to my classmates, yeah i can be quite pleased... A2 .. quite okay la :D but i mugged for this ok. i annotate, make SO much notes, borrow from other classes, guess topics and write out the compo itself. btw, thanks mr.chow for assisting us in the topic.
History : haha surprisingly A1. thank goodness i didnt fail. haha but i wrote out everything okay. so i did mug.
Math: last minute prep. did like shit.
Chinese: i did prepare. maybe not good enough. so, very bad. very very bad. i even failed sihan. and the teacher was being generous. gosh.
Geography: hmm. hahas!!! it was A1. but. oh wells. not say absolutely delighted over the marks, but not say disappointed.
i think i bit perfectionist.. high expectations

on the same note, i wish i was an only child
my parents would then put more pressure on me
and be able to pay more money for tuition fees
i would have less disturbance from irritating siblings
and how peaceful.
if only.

just try

2010-05-13T17:42:00.000+08:00

okay, after talking to jessica last night secretly
i have decided to just go for it.
as in, no harm right.
plus i wont be feeling guilty anymore
i have no reason to be guilty
but i tell you now, if i didnt know her back then,
and i friend her now,
i would hate her like some shit.
its only because i knew her, and i loved that person i knew.
i am going to find that person in her again once more.
no matter how long it takes

you cant do this to me,

2010-05-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

~~Why.~~
~~Why is it that everytime i muster up enough courage~~
~~I planned everything well~~
~~I decided to go for it.~~
~~You have to send something down my road.~~
~~You have to make me feel like i dont matter~~

~~You changed. Who are you?~~
~~i officially dont know you anymore.~~
~~you have became someone i dont like.~~
~~How could this be???~~

~~I know you are in there somewhere.~~
~~And i am probably the last person~~
~~that can help you.~~
~~if you let me.~~

2010-05-08T20:00:00.001+08:00

for once, i have no idea how to start the letter
all i know is : i love you=)

how nice.

2010-05-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

Say you marry the last person that texted you, what’s your new last name?

Khaw.
Omg its CLASS COMM.

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in their arms?
erm that is like probably my mum?? when i was a little girl?? i dont know how many times have i cried when i was a baby. do you?

What are some things you do when you’re mad?
blog,scream at someone, talk to jessica/nichole
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
just today. haha aint i amazing.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
its messy, ridiculous, and just as irritating and making me feel extremely hot as usual.

What are you listening to right now?
nothing? except that there is some alarm thingy.. oh and the typing lorhs.
Are there any stressful situations in your life?
Yes. When i am not trying to NOT fail too badly, i have many friendship problems. There is also family situations and CCA stress.

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Oh i simply love them. Especially if i like the person i am talking to :DDD

Who is the last person to send you a message on facebook?
my junior rachel? haha i was bugging her about my letter.

Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?

lemme check. Nopes :D

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine la! Its the best bed ever.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
Just one hour ago. To my eldest brother Clement.

If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
With God

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
No. I. Don't. Kiss.

Would it hurt seeing the person you last kissed, kissing someone else?
No?? LOL.

Who’s hoodie did you wear last?

Mine :D of course.
Have you ever stayed with someone because you liked their parents?
Err, yah! :D

Who have you texted today?
Jessica,Shuning.. Cant remember.

Who is the prettiest person you know?
In terms of the inside : AH MA :D
In terms of the outside : everyone else.

What’s an interesting fact about you that not many people know?
I aspire to be a leading forensic pathologist when i grow up

What do you want to do after highschool?
Get into Cambridge with a scholarship

Do you do anything embarrassing when no one is home?
HAHAA YES.

What was the last good news you heard?
i cant remember. my life is full of happiness.
If you had the chance to move to a completely different province, would you?
maybe? but singapore doesnt have a different province. and i will drag people along with me.
What is something you’ve always wanted a guy to do for you?
ooh nice question. well i dont know. haha, i just want to be truly touched i guess.

What do you wish you had more knowledge about?
Everything on how to handle life and on the whole syllabus the school wants us to know. including enrichment.

What food are you craving right now?
Pizza.

How old were you when you stopped believing in Santa ?
P3?

What are the things you’ve learned over the past year?
To appreciate everyone, to live a smile a day, some people are plain mean.
and who are my true friendsHow many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
0

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you’re sure they won’t tell?
YES.
ONE only.
Jessica. We both have secrets we told each other that only the two of us knows. it goes real deep in.

Who last made you laugh harder than you have in a long time?

jessica. that convo at night. oh gosh.
Would you ever get someones name tattooed on you?
no.

Do you know your sibling’s middle name?
they dont have.

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?
ISABELLE. joking. the fact that i couldnt go to coronation

Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart?
to forgive and forget. yes.

blocks -.-

2010-05-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

blocks are over
i got back both science and LA already.
science : totally disappointed, crap, dont talk to me about it
as for LA, its .. funny. i have mixed feelings about it.
yes i am delighted to get that mark since the average wasnt so high
but somehow, i think maybe i had expected too much.
oh wells, thanks to the teacher who marked it
and for the rest ; dont be too sad..
you'll do much much better next time.
ohh and jessica?
i am so proud of you.
no, i am not jealous or angry that you scored so much higher than me
i am truly happy for you :D
keep it up honey.

needs

2010-05-03T13:33:00.001+08:00

i love my nieces and nephews:D
i have two new niece and nephew you know
twins :D
soo cute <3
they are little babies, so fragile.
and not to forget trisha who is so cute and alert now
i get the feeling she doesnt like me
she almost cried alot a few times when i tried carrying her._.
but gladys is another thing
she is one of the few people in this world that makes me feel needed
when i leave she makes me promise that i will come back
when i go to the toilet she will keep knocking on the door to rush me
when she was younger, whenever i went home, she would cry.
not many people in this world makes you feel that your presence is necessary
but it is because of these people thats why we push ourselves even harder to appreciate every moment on earth
its so touching that someone will actually make you feel that you are needed in their lives
the moment you leave, its almost the end of the world for them
thats maybe the reason why the people who i am closest to, and the people who truly let into my life, are the people who makes me feel that i am an important part of them.
maybe thats why my friendship with her didnt work out
she didnt need me.

hk dramas

2010-05-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

omgg channel 55 is back! :DD
i love you hongkong drama series <3
o.o i am scared that i will get more addicted
like, i am already addicted to the computer
and my handphone
oh.. solitare~
facebook is highly addictive
so is MSN
but its pretty impossible to not use the computer
thanks to the amount of work we have to do on the computer
... but i dont mind sometimes :/
oh gosh the acting is so awesome.
a guy can act like a girl and not be a sissy
so awesome horh.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i like the hair.
okay before i go into fangirl mode
i better leave.
today i am going to see the twins.
D: what should i wear??

nycd batch of 2009.

2010-04-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

in case you missed me, this is how i looked like before braces
yes i still look as ugly as ever
but not as geeky.
haha:D

i look so weird in this photo
i think its this photo where i was trying not to laugh at something someone said and then i turned my head a little and the look was a bit screwed too. HAHAHA :D
omg my arms looks so long
and my fingers looks broken.
okay, bad photo.

OMG equally unglam
it was the " what pose arh" kind of photo where we were like so random and hyper and decided to do the "special dance". hahahaa
it didnt turn out like expected but still equally hilarious
camera angle abit off too but no one is perfect.
i look disgusting
was trying to take a few more photos with my teeth mah. ><

yay :D finally a nicer photo. its not the best but, its an improvement from the two crazy ones on top.
i look like i got no backbone..
lynn looks like she's flirting with you.
HAHAHAHAA okay i take that back or she'll kill me

yay group photo!! :D this is the best photo laa.
i am sure everyone loves it.
lets describe it a little then.
from left to right.
roujing has her usual smile but huimin put the sign there. o.o HAHAHA
huimin is so cute :D
okays then after the two of them is HUAYI <3
omg i love huayi, she's so cute right. even when we are 18 i will still say she's cute. little pooh. i simply adore huayi.
me : ugly and gross, move on.
lynn: popped out of nowhere, but still oh so pretty
melissa is so funny! haha she just blew you a kiss be honoured. i love fun shots ttm.
as for the last one... she's the best with all the assurance and ahma look.
:DDDDDD NYCD <3
oh my, i just realised one of us looks pretty shuai :D

teeny little eyes due to smiles :D
my favorite friend in the whole world..
haiz its so amazing how black and white can mix.
as in colours la :D
and they meet in the middle.
she's a C, and i am a I.
yet, so close.
oh yah to be fair to her, i smacked her butt in the photo thus the expression.
hahaa she wasnt smiling at first.

the reasons why i decided to put these photos up all of a sudden are the following :

NYCD is loved. I enjoy CCA so much more than last time, thanks to all the people, and my passion for dance.
My batchmates are simply the best batchmates anyone can get. especially ZHONGGES AND DAGES <3 you are loved dearly
i miss how i look without braces. putting it up since i know some people miss it too
i decided to post pictures as i havent done so since forever D:
its a chance for you to look at how awesome we are, and how pretty my batchmates are. ( note : this excludes me. )

NYCD <3

30.04.10

2010-04-30T21:57:00.001+08:00

okays chinese exam is over :D
now the two coming exams are the LEAST worrying one
yet the one with the most stress.
ohh chinese was kinda floppy like the others.
i guessed the shuimian one correctly
:DDDD
but the two sihans were so sickening and irritating
i didnt know how to write AT ALL.
did you? if you did, oh congrats.
cos i am just hoping to have gotten my geshi three marks
then i smile
i think i am kinda dead.
i wrote more for my sihan than my zuowen
(due to the paragraphing and too many baozhangbaodao practices, making me just HAVE to write more )
of course both were three and a half pages long
which is like 1000+ words
guess what?
they said : 至少写500+字
omgg what la. and what did my chinese teacher say?
two pages is not enough, we will only give 35 marks ( over 70 ) at MOST.
what the shit.
500 words is like.. one page and a half.
omg i will get like 25/70 for that.
hahaha.
we are expected to get 49.
and sihan : 15.
hahaa my cuo bie zi will do me harm.
wanna bet i will minus all 7 marks possible?
DDDD:
i love me and my poor chinese.
CCA is awesome!!
ohh before i say anything,
i took my measurements for the new dance
._. you can say i am not pleased with a CERTAIN measurement at all.
not please is the nice way of saying it
i am super pissed with it
anyway, apparently now i am as tall as charlene
you believe? i dont.
63/84
wont tell you whats that.
HAHAHAHA.
okays anyway i realised that yixian, dilys, yijun and elaine are super fun people to hang out with!!
oh not to forget heyao
she's so funny and sometimes perv.
hahaha :DD but she didn't come today
AWWW D:
yixian is very cute and funny :D
and super supportive and helpful!!
dilys is super hyper and hilarious
i love her facial expressions (:
yijun is equally helpful!!
and when she and dilys gets together, its super nice to "watch the show" cos i think they are like a great pair of good friends
was laughing like shit .
i wonder what they think of me now lorh.
omg i was so ego and hyper today
and wrong.
hahaha
i love NYCD <3

Apologies of Love.

2010-04-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

apologies of love

I'm really sorry for what i've done
Nothing i do can make up for it

From someone i looked forward to seeing,
You turned into a fear; away i was running.
Roses are red, Violets are blue
It is a fact that i love you

My feelings for you has never changed
Even as you made me go estranged
Our memories is stuck in my mind
As what is strong, is our bind

When i shut my lids, I think of our bids
And the smile that pushes me to a mile
When my baggage simply weighs a ton
You carried my up and got me on

You are my hope and light
That makes everything oh-so-bright

欢迎我回来

2010-04-29T16:52:00.000+08:00

these days are quite layback yet so stressful
i have been in a great mood so far, except today
i was probably too troubled about something i guess
i'm finally back :D
and gosh i love it when public holidays are on saturdays, so it'll be a school holiday on monday.
the awesome fact about school holidays is that there are no parents
wahahaa sometimes i hate public holidays because that means extra homework and that my siblings are at home.
= more pressure than at school
in school at least there is three things to looking forward to :
1. ah ma
2. classmates
3. teacher's jokes
at home, there is many things to look forward to.
but its to get out of the house.
D:
i love isabelle more and more already
comparing the "forget the lemon" incident and now,
its totally different..
haiz.
cant wait for one more week!!
i have so many things lined up!
shopping, movies, baking, sabbaticals, loads of fun basically
haha :D i just totally not look forward to getting back of the papers
everything seems totally screwed already.
my new motto : even if i fail, dont fail too badly
it used to be get A1 in everything
then changed to just pass
now, fail but not too disgracefully.
:D see how the school changed me?
okays kidding la.
tomorrow is chinese block tests
wish me luck
i have been having tons of homework this whole week
and from the bottom of my heart, i would like to sincerely thank all the teachers who because of our very pitiful situation extended the deadline of something.
especially my LA teacher.
thanks :D
heeehee.
okays in my next blog post i will show you the poem that i crapped out dramatically in a very bored lesson
i am actually pretty proud of it actually.
ok fine, credits to isabelle and maybe a little to cherise who helped me think of the rhyming words.
cherise : one rhyme
isabelle : much more
but my poem doesnt go out to anyone la
its just pure randomness.
i think the only thing i didnt screw up this week is my biology quiz but MAYBE got 1 mark minus.
>.<
omg BAOQINGTIAN AND SUNWUKONG IS AWESOME
haha i know chinghui loves ZHUBAJIE.
he's funny and all but he has serious moobs problems
OMG i love the seniors at the chinese dance position i am in
so funny.
half the time i am giggling away.
okays i better type out my poem in the next blogpost now.

i miss you

2010-04-25T15:01:00.001+08:00

ever since jessica told me the news, i have been pondering
the question now is , should i or should i not?
as I've said before, letting go is not easy.
but you don't seem to want me anymore.
were you trying to act cool like you don't really care, or is "okay" what you really meant from the bottom of your heart?
i am slowly trying to get you out of my life but somehow you keep making your way back in again
i know it was my fault
i was being childish and immature and irresponsible
but i have tried okay.
i bothered getting you something you liked for Christmas
i looked all over one whole day just for the prefect present for you.
"thank you" and that's all.
i wasn't expecting a total reunion but you could have tried more.
if you dont appreciate our friendship at all , i really dont know why i should
yes, it was all my fault, but give me a chance please.
i am not complaining or what, but i just want to know how you feel.
you should know that i have been silently looking out for you
i have been worrying for you about your friendship problems
why? i still care about you.
yeah, we may not have been together for a long time
but i still remember everything.
you are my bestfriend after all.
maybe its past tense now
i dont know anymore.
if we get back, there will be so much tension and conflict between us
will we ever be bestfriends ever again?
no, its impossible i guess
firstly, you already have someone else in your heart that you have been chasing since forever
i have always just been that person that will take the same route as you only
secondly, we have been separated for 6-7 months. i may not know you anymore. plus i know you probably hate me for leaving you at the time you needed someone the most
thirdly, she is in between
fourthly, i have no idea how to talk to you ever again.
what should i do now?
i really want our ex-friendship back
i believe that it was fate and destiny that gave us that chance
plus the fact that we could be so close ( not literally )
it wasnt pure luck
can i have this dance with you again?

contradiction

2010-04-24T11:01:00.000+08:00

how utterly nice.
i am the 100th visitor on my blog
and now also the 200th.
and many more in between. this is statistics to prove how dead this blog is.
as in i update a few times in a week, and yet nobody comes.
oh well D:
in about 1h15min i have tuition.
sians. i would have to start worrying about my chinese blocks.
i scared i cannot write finish in time leh XD
my speed decreased.
shits la. thank goodness for O level i only need to take for higher chinese
as in its bad enough but its only one paper right??
ok fine, its actually two but one subject only :)
i love my new blogskin, though i am still searching for my ancient one which i just cant seem to find.
later need to make history notes
i have to finish by today i hope
at least half
yesterday was quite a nice day actually
though i was extremely sleepy in CME.
>< but the other lessons werent too bad
oh wait , chinese we had to write sihan in 40 minutes
kinda almost died
i finished la JUST NICELY ><
but that is because i started early.
dont you simply agree i am so dead? i know.
ok the more we do on poetry right, i kinda think it is very very sweet for someone to write you a poem that is nice (:
haha as in writing a poem isnt that easy, and since its dedicated to you, dont you just want to go " AWWW"
ok if its to hurt you then you still go " AWW" and after that you swear.
:D my mortals still havent replied.
after three-four weeks.
congrats, they even broke my record
guess what? i dont really give a hoot anymore.
i shant complain or chase them anymore, since they dont give a damn, i shant give a damn too.
yesterday CCA was super fun.
i love the new dance :D
even though it has weird things like banyao, fansheng, and many other impossible to do tiaos.
hahaha but i love my position
the people there are so nice :D
though i kinda feel out of place sometimes thanks to my height but oh wells.
:D
i got a " i love you" SMS yesterday.
how sweet huh. guess what, its from my bestfriend-.-
i was quite pissed at jessica yesterday
if there was one thing she did right yesterday, it was to send me that message
i waited 30 minutes for her after cca, and i was feeling oh so tired and drag.
after 30 minutes she came up and said with a smile " ohh erm my mum is fetching me you know"
wth. and you didnt want to tell me earlier? thanks.
so i grabbed huayi and we just left
to make things even more awesome,
it was raining like nobody's business.
ohh but i met chiting at the busstop :D
and she took 74 with me.
after i bluffed her that the bus in front was way too crowded
and after she saw TWO 74s coming.
haha she was like oh ok.
but we were waiting for 74 to move front, and she realised how un-crowded the bus in front was.
i was like " Heehee bluff you one mah :D "
she gave me THE look.
i was like O.o, lets go on 74.. hahaa
then i went crazy on 74. talking nonstop as usual :D
and she said even though isabelle can go crazy at times, its only probably 1% of me.
which is a little true.
when i go crazy, no one can stop me.
WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA wait actually only one person can.
but i would still be giggling like nobody's business.
my highness comes at random points
but if you want me to start it off, just let me accuse you of something
too afraid of the hurt caused?
then start a sick topic.
hahahaa :D i am pretty polluted after all.
okays i better go do my catechism homwork.
or later i will get the deathly glare.
(did i mention i love the song IRONY, haha! the lyrics are awesome)

2010-04-22T16:26:00.000+08:00

today was quite fun:D
haha i was super high like half the time
it started in Language Arts (:
All because of the topic! haha it was poetry (:
the teacher was like " isnt it nice if someone writes a poem to you? even nicer if its someone from the opposite sex?"
isabelle and i were like giving the -.- stare.
then after that it switched on the "horny" button. hahaha
haha then had ppt slides
so we were like COPY COPY COPY
but of course cannot copy so fast lar ( i was still faster than isabelle :D )
he was like talk talk talk SWITCH
then we would be like AHHH
haha it was super funny.
but i usually only copy so i wont fall asleep
i think he saw me sleeping ytd
DIE. haha so today i copied three pages worth of notes
:D i am so proud of my notes!!!
and i gained my love for geography again.
AWWW><
hahaa super high
then later recess. even worse -.-
isabelle was like " aya go for second recess lorh"
and today i just felt SOOO greedy.
so i just had to go down to eat. haha but of course since it was a thursday, no one wanted to eat in first recess..
oh but i dunno how but somehow i ended up going with nichole to eat.
nichole was like "actually i dont mind going to eat but.."
so i was like " hey today got laksa lets go eat"
then lalala we went down
cos the whole time i was feeling damn high
so of course the egoness level naturally went UP :D
hahaha so when we went down i was like " now i know why you want to come down to eat. not because of the laksa, but because its a privellege to eat with me"
haha she was like " WHAT?!!!"
ohh then second incident is at the asian delight stall.
two girls left when we reached so when i got so ego i went " you see nichole, people like me soo much that they make way for me so that my queue would be faster. "
hahahaa she was like a bit WTH CANDICE haha and shuning joined behind but we couldnt see her at first due to her awesome height
:DDDDDD
hahaa then i was also extremely hyper after school.
i started accusing isabelle out of nowhere
SUPER FUNNY :D
and i led rachel and chiting to believe i was SMS-ing my brother
which they did believe
OMG SO FUNNAY:D
isabelle's amused look was so hilarious.
hahaa i cant wait to laugh about it tmmr with her again.
shit la my thumbdrive is missing.

2010-04-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

harlo earthlings
i am back. with absolutely NOTHING to say ._.
oh wait, i do know what to say :D
hahaa i hate the feeling of losing a close friend
as in with us changing seats and all, i know the whole relationship problem - not just my group or that group or what , but really everyone in the WHOLE class - will be changed and evolved and somewhat shitty again. i thought it would last a while but yet again, nothing lasts. you may be happy for a while but were you ever happy forever? nah. same with sadness though if you look on the bright side. you can never be 24/7 emo ( ITS IMPOSSIBLE REALLY. you go and bathe also damn emo? you sleeping also emo like shit? )
i dont know whats important to me sometimes anymore. i dont know or really dont even want to care to know what is important. i just know that all my friends are dear to my heart. losing one of them, ANY, is like ripping the heart out, tearing it, pooring acid all over, stomping on it before placing it back in again. it hurts basically. it would affect my life too._.
the thing is, my feelings are hardly reciprocated. i can love someone like some shit, and never get loved back enough. never. its like that even with jessica and all. she is my bestfriend, but she will never be able to love me as much as i can love her.
just to sidetrack abit, she say she may change sex. then i will have a bf and we will have premarital sex. HAHAHA just joking if i gave you a scare
i wont give up. not so easily. i am not a quitter. i will still strive silently until you feel it one day. Letting go is not easy, it may do that person well but that person will never know. She will always just think you dont want her anymore or what. But if letting go is truly the better choice, i will choose it. Yet again. I once let two close friends go so that they will gain their happiness. At that point it didnt matter to me whether i will gain my happiness. i just didnt want their happiness to be affected by me. I wasnt important. My friends are.
I dont want to let anyone go. No one dear to me. I want to be selfish and keep them all close and be possesive. But they wont be happy. Its impossible to have everyone. Its impossible to have one person already. Bestfriend? is there such a thing? what are friends really? i dunno. i am searching for the answers i know i will think i will get one day. but no one ever knows.
this may have been a random post, but it came from the bottom of my heart no less.

changes. yet again.

2010-04-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

hmm today we chose our new seating arrrangement..
its the last year very first arrangement.
quite nice la (:
i am all the way at the back in the center.. hmph?
i wonder if that is good or bad cos its like at the back!!
and no more isabelle.
= no more copying during quizzes, no more outbursts, no more venting of anger, no more gossip and giggling.
OMGGGGG ISABELLE DARLING IS GONE.
i just realised how sad i am. haha in class i was excited i dunno why -.-
i am now sitting with jiahui and jianing.
:D

cip is loved

2010-04-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

awww today i went to the hospital again !! :D you must be thinking " walao, go old folks home also put smiley face. what kind person is this?" haha no la today was really quite fun you know!!! HAHAS. okays bus ride first right. heehee (: of course it was the happy losers part two! wahahaha i know you are excited. omg i forgot what songs we sang but we had loads of fun.. haha and cherise wanted to hear us, and isabelle kept turning back giving us the " wth " look. oh and isabelle? thanks for lending us your ipod. you can be our funder :D hahahaa.. we sang one really nice song which i just cant seem to remember now.. oh and the school song.. and the whole of you belong with me. hhaha we didnt edit the lyrics nichole style. haha. ohh and a bit of tong hua. which after that we heard shuning sing and were too embarrassed to open our mouths about that song with such quality already. gawd.. haha at the laoren yuan. OMG OMG OMG <3 we were in groups right? so of course the six of us la. then we were sent to the day rehab centre. the best place. the happiest place. the (in terms of temperature) coolest place. you know what we did there? play mahjong and cards -.- for two hours. i know. hahaha yitong and i teamed up against two other workers, cherise weiting and old ah ma one team, another ah ma. so five players. each time we win so funny. yitong and i somemore got this theory on putting the coins below the bottle to "lay eggs" lay money. i know. our fengshui very good one lorh. hahaa isabelle and chinghui play mahjong. like srzly. they even won -.- AHHHH. ahhahaa i wanna play again (: OMGGGGGGG ok the way back to school. so funny. LMAO. we sang you are the music in my sharpay version. first 18 minutes. SO BIMBOTIC. omg : 5.6.7.8. NANANANA. NANANANA. HAHAHAHHAAA LAUGH LAUGH. we present to isabelle. she was like -.- I LOVE CIP (: <3

catechism drag

2010-04-18T12:34:00.001+08:00

had catechism class ytd
rachel came back.
class was boring.
somehow, this are the only three sentences to describe my saturday if i wanted to. hahas
of course i wont leave it like that, make my life sound SO boring-.-
well i had tuition, and what do you expect from tuition? nothing.
its a one - way thing. you give her money to crap words out. D:
then i had catechism class. actually when it first started it was quite fun.
haha we forced roy to stand up and that part i dunno why but it was just hilarious
couldnt stop giggling like siao.
after that, it was just as boring as ever-.-
i think its cos its just group work chat chat and not really any special activities.
debate is awesome kays.
that kind of group work is soo fun and nice :D
and people actually sincerely laugh from the bottom of their hearts
and not laugh at people , but with people.
>< i want something much much more interesting
and YAY i dont have to wear a dress next week (:
can wear my jeans and tee again.
pheww

vanishing acts

2010-04-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

yupp , i have officially finished vanishing acts yesterday night
read it in one day (: hehe the point of MC.
wahaha ok anyways back to the vanishing acts <3
haha its a good book!! :D
if i learnt one thing from the book, its that i am super biased to pretty girls and handsome boys.
hahaha! even if they arent the heroes of the book or the good characters
my heart still goes out to them <3
haha ugly people i dont ignore or what la but they are just less interesting ._.
ANYWAYS ( again -.- ) , i think that the father really loves the child a lot.
well i think that all parents in this world loves their child more than themselves.
(or at least, most)
haha thats from me, its not an important person quote or what.
wait, i am important.
oh wells. hmph (:
here comes the essay :
no matter what decisions parents makes for their child, they are always putting the child or at least a child, as first place. they are willing to give up their lives to save their children if that is possible. from the moment the child is born, they would want to protect her/him from all the danger in the world and instead, if any danger were to fall unto the children, parents would gladly take their place. it is very touching isnt it? >< i am not a parent yet so i can fully understand this as i have said, and i know i will still find my parents naggy no matter what. but i learnt. to appreciate is never an easy task.
i think delia should go to eric. yes, he is an alcoholic. but do you expect him to be perfect? no one is perfect. that is his one flaw. like alex rivers. OMG I LOVE ALEX. ok sorry. hahaa oh wells. most importantly, he loves delia. he gave up power and money for her. he gave up what he could have for her. = he loves her. ok fine, fitz loves her too. but.. he's not handsome. ahahah! but i dunno, i think eric loves her more lorh. like come on la. plus he is the dad of her child right. sophie needs her REAL dad. fitz? lost his job. unreliable. omg delia i dont care go join eric la. wth you will soon see that fitz is only perfect as your bestfriend. go wed eric now. haha i dont care!! i like eric . of course, my fav no matter what is ALEX.. omgg ><
i love vanishing acts but you know the ending i want ^^

puke

2010-04-14T13:02:00.000+08:00

haiz. i am sick.
apparently its the stomach flu
and i got fever, sorethroat, runny nose, headaches..
not to mention i vomited four times yesterday
and the fact that i am super super frail right now
oh and guess what?
there is NAPFA five items tmmr.
LUCKY ME.
-.- i sure hope i feel much better tmmr.
i hate being sick.
i guess the only advantage of being sick is that suddenly more people starts getting concerned about you.
which will go off once you are not sick again
i wont really say its a pretence
but its like cant you maintain it?
okay nvm i better do my gonghan
byes

NICH! - Part 2

2010-04-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

omg nich changed the lyrics again. hahaha read :
( its copyright hor )

she wear short skirt, i wear big bra
she wear bikini, i wear g-string

she got big boobs, i got nothing
she got pink bra, i wear panty!

yay nich!

2010-04-12T20:29:00.003+08:00

i forgot how much i love nich
hahaha I LOVE YOU NICH(:
the one person out of two that makes me smile like shit on MSN
and laugh with all the emoticons :D

catechism class debate

2010-04-10T19:58:00.000+08:00

today was loads of fun!!! :D i am referring to catechism class only. tuition was.. drag. come on la i think i wasted ( or rather, my mum ) today's lesson la!! she just kept reading from online to help me for my chinese SIA. like i cant do that myself-.- sians. lunch.. then after that CATECHISM CLASS hahaa super fun (:
it starts at 1445. i reached at 1425. met valerie downstairs.. went up together and we saw kimmy. apparently she needed to pee. right away. and the female toilet was locked. (: i am not gloating but it was just funny. i was like " shhh " haha which made her want to pee more! and after a lot more " SHHH" , we went to the toilet. haha the female toilet was cleaning in progress. we sneaked out way in only to be chased out as it is "still very wet, very dangerous".. then go to the males toilet.. DE PANG BIAN. hahaha the handicap toilet lorh. i kept asking her to go to the male toilet. haha!! then after that go to catechism class
hmm bad news : i am the only girl left in the group. rachel got some YOG commitments which leaves me to be the only girl. freak la. one girl : three boys. hmph. so sad can. i am abandoned. now i have no one to giggle with but only at. pfft. i am mad la. it was supposed to be three boys three girls. now ?? -.-
anw today was on DEBATES on human rights. My group only got three people ; rachel and roy didnt turn up. so we merged with valerie's group. their helper was stephanie. she asked me what i thought about the subject . guess what? i am now actually super thankful for TKAM. hahaha i said like the singapore is multiracial.. blahblah these people work their hearts our for us.. rmbr its a sin tkam. lol the adults laughed(: after that i got pretty cold and hyper. hahaha was laughing every few seconds. and sean thinks i was gloating when it was his turn to speak. haha i wasnt lorh! oh wells (: then when we each have to give a speech it was super funny. everyone said what they had to say and i was last. when i said it i was three fourth done then they were like " ok ok ok. last speaker" .. apparently the last speaker summarizes everything and rebutts everything too. oh wells(:
okays debate time. i was freezing. like hell. three aircons blowing in my direction. temperature probably -100 degrees celcius or sth. pfft. i sat in the middle. valerie was the first speaker. sean second. me last. woots. how nice -.- then ok while stacy's group was talking i was making notes and telling the two of them what to say. how nice of me. no actually in hindsight i regret it cos i think its looks kinda boastful and proud. sorry. but anyway my speech went something like this : singapore is a multi racial country that promotes each race and religion to live together in HARMONY. this is also why we have racial harmony day. if singaporeans do not start living together, we will always live in prejudice and hatred. these foreign workers work so hard each day, they ought to have equal rights to live properly with other people. they come all the way to singapore to make a living. without these people, would singapore be what they are right now? they have strongly helped in our growth and development. since they have made this world a better place to live in, and if we dont let them live in residential areas together with the rest, it is truly a sin, *pauses for dramatic effect* to kill a mockingbird. then i sat down. hahaa super funny. the adults were laughing. this proves how ancient the book is !!! zomg. hahaha
well after that were some really funny debates. and then we were laughing hysterically at the others. stephanie thought i was nervous as i was shivering up there. yeah right, it was just frigging cold.
haha then the price presentations. it was best speaker award. the two people next to me were like chanting candice after the first best speaker was announced. i was like wth, i know my name very nice dun need to say so many times right. walao then really i was the other person. oh my tian la. haha i won some chocolate that i gave to other people ( mostly gretel ) because i didnt really enjoy it plus braces limited me to only eating the surface of it. awesome huh. yeah then we recited the alphabet and went home. stacy went home with me ( as in take same bus ) cos she needed to go to the SP gate 1. haha (:

老人院

2010-04-09T23:05:00.001+08:00

today i went to the old folks home. hmm my bus buddy was chinghui....who was annoyed at me at first cos i had made her angry but after that was ok since i apologised. And my form teacher aka chinese teacher sang songs to us. which i have no comment about that.. but we all know.. (the truth) hahaha! :D
well anw on the bus right, chinghui and i were fooling around. At first we kept on taking photos of isabelle jiejie and weiting (: haha and tricia and yitong but backview so deleted. took the pics with ching's phone and yes my phone no battery so sad right. i know. haha then we suddenly dunno how talk about singing. cos ching and i were arranged to go to the karaoke part with the old folks. i was quite hoping that when i sang, no glass would break and no one's eardrums would be destroyed, including mine. teehee. well anyway yeah songs. hahaa we were saying how terrible we were, and suddenly i sang WO AI NI. then chinghui caught u singing AI ZHE NI. hahaha then so nicely, WE sang JIU XIANG LAO SHU AI DA MI. then of course we do what girls do best : giggle like nobody's business. damn funny. haha then we decided we shall get our own group and albums. guess what was our group's name? it was THE HAPPY LOSERS. hahahahaa cos we cant sing at all. hmm the next song was the national anthem. see how much we love our country?! yeah. haha we did it in four four time. conductor way. she sang half i sang half then got one part must hold we hold and go damn high pitched. omg and weiting and isabelle were giving us the stares and laughing. at us. hahaha. then taylor swift. OMG. i was sop, chinghui bass. hahaha. SHE WEARS HIGH HEELS . I WEAR SNEAKERS. ahhahaha damn epic la!!! but super funny (: and bimbotic. hahas. cos it was damn off. and yet sounded quite decent.. then erm it was yue liang dai biao wo de xin. ermms. ermms. ahha. you get the point. then one more song i cant really rmbr now.. >< but haha by the time we got to the hospital, we were laughing like siao.
hmm it was quiet and pretty humid in the old folks home. and shit i didnt make a donation. i shall do so next friday. ok we went to karaoke room. realised we supp to bring our own CD.. then freak out. so chinghui and i left ( we really couldnt sing ) and joined the group in the folding origami which turned out to be only folding stars with the old folks..
we had to wait upstairs for a while as the old folks were having some exercise thingy going on where they sat in a circle ( yes all in wheelchairs >< ) and they had to kick this yoga ball around. with nice music. hahaha then we pushed them back. taught them. well, we tried. in the end it was more of giving them. and chinghui scolding them whenever they say they are OLD. hahaha we were like " not old la not old" , then they say sth like " 97 liao" then you would be like -.- still not old.. hahaha very hard!!. then go upstairs and it was better. turns out there are lesser males. there was this old active guy at the karaoke table there and when he saw us he went " LAO SHI HAO, TONG XUE MEN HAO, WO MEN KE YI SHANG KE LIAO". omg so sad. i always sing that song to make me happy. but now i doubt i can do the same again.. then the males were much more active but we still moved to the female department on the third floor. ching and i talked to this pair of friends. who kept insisting they cant fold stars. haha i taught one successfully. it was weird cos they were talking i dunno what language. and omigosh i better learn my cantonese + hainanese soon. then this other old lady i went with cherrie... she went to the next bed i went to that old lady. it said she can speak english and cantonese.. so i felt quite safe(: until the first thing she said was chinese-.- hahaha.. she saw that we were from nanyang then she said "ahh nanyang, my two children from there. now they leave go .....( couldnt hear/didnt understand ) " then she cried. omg i was so scared la. i was like "bu yao shang xin le" then gave her more stars.. then she said "ni men ai mu xiao hen hao. ni men hen cong ming. xie xie ni men de ai xin" i was almost touched to tears lorh. this abandoned poor old lady kept praising us though she was so sad by her two kids.. and she is like 97 which is really old and i had to say ni hen you fu qi, shang tian bao you ni... blahblahblah. so sad.
then got another one is behind. she was super high! in a sad way. she talked chinese. murmmured chinese. haha then she said what " ni de baba you zuo gong ma?" -.- and like dogs dont like sweet stuff, like sour stuff. omg so scary. turns out she had a dog when she was very young, and she loved it. when she was escaping from i dunno what she had to eat it or sth. so sad. she started to cry!! omg this is such an emotional day. then she got two soft toys. erms. which are dogs i guess.. poor her la i think. they are ALL　ｖｅｒｙ　ｐｏｏｒ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ．　haiz.. shall pray for them
somewhere in between, i received shocking news. and yeah.. cant say it here but i was scared all right. freaked out till i got home. omg..
i cant wait for next friday. can see the old folks again. and help them better this time round.
yours truly, candice

good luck (:

2010-04-09T20:47:00.001+08:00

JIAYOUS EVERYONE FOR OM.
DONT WORRY ABOUT THE RESULTS
WHAT MATTERS IS I STILL LOVE YOUU

change of heart

2010-04-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

hey peeps. i guess you can tell from the title that i have just finished reading change of heart. i realised something, before i read a book, if someone tells me something about it like how good it is or how touching it is, i will never find it as good as they say. because i will be anticipating the nice parts and setting high expectations. sometimes, in the process, i miss out whats really important.
when i was reading picture perfect, i thought it was going to be a happy nice couple-y book. none of my friends read it before so i didnt know anything. yeah therefore i was really touched and now i love the book. to sidetrack a little : i love alex rivers. hahaha.
my sisters keeper is another one. i knew many people were very touched by the book. but i was skeptical. i didnt believe that it could touch me as much as it really did in the end. i had no expectations thus i truly appreciated the book. \
as for mercy.. it was the first book i read. and i did cry, but as i was in front of others i didnt dare to let the tears out. i didnt know ANYTHING about jodi picoult at all at that time , that is why.. yeah.
keeping faith and nineteen minutes were great books i liked a lot. no comment on it besides the fact i like ian fletcher. hahaha.
the tenth circle. hmm. i was expecting a lot from the book because of what it was about and therefore greatly disappointed. but i will read it again at the end of the year and maybe be truly touched this time round.
ok finally : change of heart. i would like to thank nichole (: for trusting me with the book and lending it to me oh so promptly!! :D it was a nice book.
hmm sylvia read the book before and told me it was a nice book. she also said a long time ago when i was reading my sisters keeper, " jodi picoult writes very sad stories. thats why i dont read them". therefore , in my mind, i sorta knew that change of heart probably made her cry. and that was why i had a very high expectation of change of heart when i was reading it. i kept waiting for the part where i would break down and tear. well, many parts almost made me did that, but it was NEVER enough. in picture perfect and my sisters keeper, i started crying because of one sentence. i was waiting for that sentence in change of heart. but i have to admit, it was a great book. of course. i felt pity for june and shay. it is true, who can really decide your death? yes, you killed someone. but to kill you? whats the use. one less criminal. yeah and one more life God brought into this world gone. yeah and more sadness around the earth. no one has the right to decide a person's fate. only yourself. oh and i was super happy with the return of ian fletcher!! (: he was damn cool of course ~~ omg i love keeping faith. hahaha okays. i shant say too much before i get emotional.

7 April

2010-04-07T17:55:00.000+08:00

hmm today was quite a nice day actually.
ok besides the block test part
but i pretty much guessed like 75% of the question so i think i should be safe.. ?
my essay was totally from the essay i wrote the night before-.-
cross my fingers and hope my friends and i can get high marks
since most of us screwed up chemistry. HAHA
then blah blah blah
its biology.
he came in and said some stuff then started on the ppt slides..
and it was like " here is the most awaited topic : sexual reproduction" *giggles from everywhere*
lol. so typical.
i was just sitting there like nothing happened, and being extremely excited.
i think isabelle hates me now. hahaha
i was soo sick throughout the whole lesson.
and cherise too of course.
omg haha~!!!

then my awesome ahma jessica's 82nd bday!!
yeah i know she's old.
i bought her a blackforest cake which is quite expensive
hmv earphones which arent cheap
facial masks as a joke but are expensive too.
i feel so broke.
but she was really touched.
we went down to the canteen to celebrate after school
hmm some of her classmates were there
and some chinese dance people too.
but the cake population went mostly to her classmates.
hahaa!!
but jessica was really really happy.
oh and there was no erm lighter
so i went " JESSICA WHY YOU NEVER BRING LIGHTER"
hahaha super epic.
then she blew a fake flame off the candle
one candle because she so old not enough candles so just put 1
so she wont so paiseh ma! 82 liao le leh~
then we went KAP with vivian and claudia
so funny~
we kept making fun of jessica
and we met minghui there too!! she wished ME happy birthday.
hahaha
so cute :D

thats my day for now.
three people bugging me on MSN.
sorry! love you~

understood?

2010-04-03T18:50:00.000+08:00

Atticus Finch said in order to understand someone, you must climb into his skin.
i prefer to differ.
even if you climbed into my skin, i doubt you would understand me.
Do you ever feel like you don't understand yourself sometimes?
Then HOW can you expect others to understand you?
( please note this is a different matter with parents and family members )
no one can ever understand anyone not even oneself
only God knows you better than you know yourself
its an undeniable fact.

to my dear lost friend : who are you? you act so much i dont really know who you are now. not that i have ever knew. you dont want others to see that you are sad, so you cover it up and place a fake smile on your face. i really want to know you one day, please give me the chance. you may laugh at me, if you want to use that to show your sadness, i will willingly be the stupid one.

Picture Perfect - yet another touching time

2010-04-02T15:11:00.000+08:00

i have read picture perfect
of course, it touched me to tears but this time, i did not expect it
i was curious and i turned to the back to see the ending after a few chapters but i was like " chey "
when i finished reading the book, i was crying buckets, no kidding
it was so touching on how much the two of them love each other so much and yet divorce is the best way out for all of them. i hate Will actually. i know he has a purpose in this book but i just wish like why cant he be cassie's brother or sth. argh.
it was a short book compared to handle with care which is twice as long but still the effect is almost equivalent to the after effect of my sisters keeper.

Just like how current chinese teacher had said (in chinese of course -.- ) : a good story is one that will touch your heart or at least make you remember it after you read it. If it does nothing to you, it is a poor quality story.

I am scared of reading vanishing acts and handle with care which i bought too
if for picture perfect i can cry like that, then vanishing acts and handle with care which is much much more touching.. i wonder what will happen
plus these books have an effect on me, it stays in me and i find myself quoting the author sometimes. she says things that can solve my problems, things that let me see the problems in this real world, things that i pray more for each weekend, and most importantly, she says things that i may never dare to say. i applaud her in my blog post.

funny moments in PE lesson

2010-03-31T16:10:00.000+08:00

omg today was super funny!!
in PE, we were playing basketballs and then there was this red and white plastic line that we had to do some jump and throw the ball over
our famous jumper cherise lei she threw too high/hard
and i was at the other side retrieving our ball
the ball landed not too far away from me but i could tell it would bounce again and the victim? Me. so in slow mo, i bent down, stared at the ball and it flew over me
no kidding but it was super funny.
weiting, cherise and i were laughing like nobody's business.
oh then later we had to shoot some hoops
and as usual our oh so curious jumper threw the ball too hard ( again -.-) and the ball flew over to NJC.
damn epic and superb funny
even miss yeo and mr lim were laughing. hahahaha
miss yeo was like in disbelief yet in awe
the whole thing was super super funny.

chawamushi

2010-03-29T17:27:00.002+08:00

ok fine i admit, the chawanmushi rocks!!!
but of course la , i cook one mah :)

2010-03-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

zomg i am cooking chawanmushi according to the home economics "healthier way of living" recipes.
aya then no sugar or anything. bet i will eat it and probably go " whats the slimy thing that has no taste?"
garr.
science block test was such a failure today.
if i can get 30/40 or above right, I will do something good i promise.
but haha the percentage of that is ... 0.0000000001%
which is only due to if the teachers realised the whole block test was set wrongly.
gimme a break man -.-
ok then after isabelle bday!!!
awww she really liked the cake yitong bought!!
haha i chose the flavour!
blackforrest
but i felt really poor thing for isabelle cos only the five of us softly sang her the song..
so poor thing.
but she was really happy
smiling so sweetly !! :D

argh

2010-03-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

i cant believe myself -.-
YOU ARE CONTROLLING ME TOO MUCH I TELL YOU
get out.

the sound of silence

2010-03-28T12:49:00.001+08:00

do you know, when someone suddenly stops talking to you or just keeps quiet
and that person usually talks quite a lot or sth
you suddenly feel the throbbing pain of the silence
when nothing you do can make the other person talk again
you realise that silence does have a sound after all

gimme a break

2010-03-28T12:13:00.000+08:00

woah suddenly like very sian today.
totally is 180 degree difference from ytd where i smile and smile like mad.
haiz.
but i realised that when you think too much about something, it doesnt do you good.
like i am extremely worried for blocks tmmr
but i try to keep that in a small portion of my mind
haiz i will be separated from isabelle tmmr ><

2010-03-27T21:35:00.002+08:00

take my hand, and we'll be there for each other for ever.

cried. once again

2010-03-23T20:07:00.001+08:00

today i cried a lot.
no, i didnt fall down or lose someone dear to me
someone else did.
i was reading my sister's keeper
and suddenly the tears came
isabelle was worried, then faye..
then i went to jessica and she was like --
everyone else gave me a hug
sylvia also got scared.
haha until i told her why
i guess i am pretty sentimental when it comes to certain stuff.
when on death and dying, or leaving or sad stuff i can cry
i can empathize and sympathize quite well i guess.
i even cried when reading and watching charlottes web when charlotte died.
yeah its fiction. its a story.
but its sad, touching and it gets to the bottom of my heart
especially when i put myself in the characters shoes.
maybe you would think i am childish, maybe i am
but here is the line that made me start crying
cos after that subsequently when i cried was because i read on when Anna died.

i wonder if i lose my perspective in being your mother, because i'm so busy being kate's

i thought it was quite touching that her mother actually knew what she anna might have been going through, and that anna deserves our pity because sometimes, she doesnt have a life on her own. it revolves around others too much she doesnt know who she really is. i am not a mother ( come on -- ) so i may not know how it feels. but i can sympathize with sara in the sense that not many things went smooth for her every since kate got sick. i was thinking as i was bathing, a family needs a lot of courage and love for someone who is sick in the family, because someone may get neglected. it may be the sick person, it may be others. i admire those who handle it well and yeah.

thank you jodi picoult for writing such amazing books
i cry at each book.. lol i wonder if thats good or bad.
(was real emotional while writing this,)

jodi picoult books

2010-03-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

i love and adore jodi picoult's books.
thats right, wanna get me a present? buy jodi picoult.
her books are deep and it covers different forms of love
almost every paragraph there will be one sentence worth remembering
no, i dont like it cos its sick or what
but because its simply different
her vocabulary.. her words...
it just touches your heart and sometimes make you want to cry.
i can read just one page, and get engrossed.
her books teaches me alot and i look up to her
she is one good author.
gawd i feel like some promoter.
but still, YAY (:

first day back at school

2010-03-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

like life would be any better on the first day of school.
yes you get to meet your friends<3
and yes you get new teachers.
and pray they are not gay.
or boring with monotones

so this was my first day of school.
i was stuck on a traffic jam on the way to school.
learning ting xie so i dont really mind.
and guess what? no ting xie today.
then i reached school to only realise chinese dance practice started
so much for socialising..
ok had fun at chinese dance. of course since my friends were all there
then when i went back to class
i felt out of the social circle already.
how fast things change sometimes i wonder.
then drama. quite ok besides the fact i was worrying about my FBTs.
then chinese. ergh. gave us homework on zuowen.
i did my presentation. was laughing at the start.
ok that was sth i wouldnt wanna rmbr.
she criticise me for very long lehh!!!
and finally gave me the mark : 75. phew phew phew
so happy!
ok lunch, was starving didnt eat
went to library. yay then chinese dance. then library
how boring is my life -.-
then history. isabelle had left me already. so sad right?
i took her place then. HAHAA
kept laughing with cherise and chinghui.
the teacher was nice!
she asked : who wants to go back to the past?
i raised my hand.
sylvia looked at me
then i remembered i was only 8.
ahhaa i would go back to the year i learnt walking then! yay~
then science
got a new teacher.
GAWD hes not my hubby or what can -.-
he is jiahui's . hahahs!
ok he is so tall he seems elongated.
but he seems quite nice though!
plus i love biology~
then class comm talk.
haiz dun talk about it

so that is my first day of school.
(:

jessica

2010-03-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

yay this post is dedicated to my awesome bestfriend jessica aka AH MA <3
she's an awesome friend i tell you
you probably dunno it cos she's MY bff
HAR neh neh ni pu pu
ok thats the childish side of me
anw i love jessica~
i have a certain fate with ppl named jessica
i wonder why
all the jessicas i meet are my good friends
and they are all very nice people
and i always thought jessica is a name for popular but mean ppl
you know,those american cheerleaders that are real pretty and stuff
hahaha ok thats stereotyping
but still.
anyways, i still strongly believe, that people named candice is still the best. who agrees?

FAMILY. its my SIA

2010-03-21T15:58:00.002+08:00

但是，家是什么？家是一言难尽的一个字，家是整个世界在下雪、走进其中却是春天的地方。家，是地球上的一块乐园，是一个和平的角落。对我来说，有了家，就等于有了爱。在这个世界上，最可怜的人就是那些没有家人的人，因为他们缺少了家可以给你的温暖，给你的爱，给你全世界的幸福。只有家人可以给你亲情的感觉。

亲情是一把结实的伞，为你遮风挡雨; 家人是永远会保护着你，让你感到安全。.... (:

I AM BACK (:

2010-03-21T15:53:00.001+08:00

ok i realised my lovely fans have been asking me to blog recently
and i havent been neglecting my blog dearly these days.
haiz..
ITS OK! i am back <3
hahas its after march holidays already
actually this year time past so slowly
i miss sec one life.
it was filled with laughter and tears
sec two life is filled with projects and homework
what is this -.-
but of course i am enjoying it too!
and as usual jessica is being very nice and encouraging!
yay i love my ah ma!
oh and i shall no longer private my blog
cos i know people would wanna read it!!
well yeah -.-
ok i just feel very egoistical these days
hmm i am currently listening to Taylor Swift,
Gawd i love her!! hahas
i bought her album but i am trying to find her first album
if anyone knows where to get it please tell me!!
hmm i shall talk about the million things that happened so far in brief
i got three mortals, nicolette, rachel and april
who are all very cute (:
lol yes writing letters like hell
not to mention i am writing to yitong, jessica, chinghui ( starting ) and my angel but that one is like on a monthly basis. HAHA we're both very very busy i guess.
i still love shopping
spent 93 bucks the other day
i had a class BBQ in which lao shi came!
yay and she took UNGLAM photos of me. but it was fun with her around
ching hui and i were being retarded at the beach but it was loads of fun
hmm my three people project grp is ching and isabelle
my two lovely people!
hahas and i am chioinging my chinese SIA
which i will show you part of it later no worries
and jessica is my bestfriend.
well yeah-.-
i am in love with chinese dance now.
GAO GEs YOU ARE AWESOME!!!
ok and huimin is as gross as ever
and i am still the sickest.
hahas
its lovely in ballet and all ,
perth was sth i will bring with my for my life forever.
... oh ya chinese new year!!
hmm hong bao less = stingier ppl.
but i used my money to buy my new OMNIA lite phone
it is awesome though i recently lost my stylus
hahaha
hmm thats all for now.
i promise to blog soon kays
( there. i didnt say when SOON is)

My Dreams Are So Near Yet So Far

2009-12-23T22:09:00.002+08:00

Here's what i am going to tell you from my lovely perth trip in Australia
Some parts is from my diary
Some is my own brain
Reason is because i am lazy to write some stuff on certain days :D
29 November
On the plane
11.05am
Dear Fans of Mine ( this was originally Dear Diary ),
I'm on the plane!!!! I can't wait you know.. whee~ Time past so quickly .. I am afraid that before i know it, I'll be back in Singapore; Not that i dun like singapore but.. you understand dun you? Ergh I'm having a headache now. This is the most unstable and shakiest flight I ever took. Oh but i will be taking many other flights :D In the future. But i bet its some newbie pilot-.- blek you know, when i covered my ears with my hads when the plane was taking off, they ( moley and fionna and others ) thought i was scared or sth. Kept saying:" are you okay? is she okay??..." oh well, glad to know that this world isn't void of concern and care at least. Btw, I am sitting on 60F , the last seat.. Johanna is on my left and Beatrice her left, who said i look innocent when i was listening to Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me. hmph nothing to say about tat.
Just now , at the airport, Terminal One ( if you are seriously stupid , i meant Changi Airport), I was crazy. I know i already am but its just one of my other High Mode .. Along with Kelly. Both of us were like lame-ing and giggling like siao , basically we're just hyper maddies... But how can we help it? We're awesome and thats a fact you can't deny. Heehee being egoistic again.
Oh and we almost missed our flight!!!We were waiting for Miss Lee but the gate almost closed so we just rushed in. I felt really bad. We're supposed to wait for her. Freaked out cos we were worried she would miss the plane; Thank Goodness she came. Yay HAPPY-ing.

29 November 2009
In the Hotel Room
9.47pm
It was just one simple day in Australia, yet i am having so much fun
Maybe its just my awesome friends who are so hyper and yet so sweet.
During the flight( yes i am not done talking ..) , Johanna let me sleep on her after i put three pillows ><
It was really comfortable and i enjoyed it ( which means i managed to sleep!! )
But not for long, i woke up to Dyan's laughter at me
oh wells :D
Then when we landed ( yes dumbo, in perth )
it felt so hot.. haha i love the cold
thank goodness for the rain.
Then obviously we went even more crazy, giggling non-stop.
blah blah..
then we stopped by kings park^
it was hot ( heat by the sun )
YET, extremely windy.
i was like :" WHY DIDNT MAMA PACK MY WIND-BREAKER"
hahas Kings Park was cool
we learnt a lesson : food in australia is very expensive
and the winds can be really cold.
and the aussie accent is cool!!
ok thats more than one lesson.
oh well, my math sucks
then we rested a while in our hotel room
its small but comfy and cozy
Guess what? there's shaving cream in the hotel room!!
heehee.. ok la at first I thought it is armpit shaving cream
BUT only when i got back to spore
then i realised its for the face-.-
LOL then i unpacked, Johanna bathed.
And made the whole floor wet
and thus when i bathed,
lucky me didnt want my pants to be wet by the wet floor so i changed in the bathtub
AND FELL AND HURT MYSELF BADLY.
SHOULDERS.
blek.,
then we went for dinner and the food was "so good" i had four servings.
then celebrate Fionna's bdae.
i love cherries. HHAHAHAHA esp the ones on cake
then we went to the minimart and bought loads of gum
yay none for you.
then come back hotel.
kelly and charmaine came over
took our tea
yours truly made it
LIKE DUHH
and i tied their hair for them.

30 november 09
10.10 pm
hotel room
today is a day with mixed feelings
i was emo due to many factors like
tiredness, fatique, too much highness ^^, anxiety, worry
the list goes on
yet another day passed so quickly
why cant time just stop for a while!
ok our clock stopped but heck
i woke up at 630 today
my alarm ( CHECK YES JULIET) rang but i didnt know
johanna woke up though
and i woke up and she was stil so sleepy
i was quite energetic,excited probably
then i bathed and was wrapped up in the towel squatting down thanks to the temp
lol i know
then i woke jo up
yeaphs the lazy PIG went back to sleep
hahas but i am the real pig. she only slept in on monday and sunday.
me, EVERY OTHER DAY~~~~~~~~~~~~
hee then i called kelly and charmaine
apparently i was the one who woke them up
their alarm didnt go off and also too soft -.-
wtv la. yay me me me eme e
candice to the rescue!!!!
ahas then tie hair
ARGH
then eat bfast
YUMS IS THE WORD
greeedy us.
the FOUR GREEDY LITTLE PIGS
hahahs editted version
BALLET.
damn cool
the dance studio was big
the teacher was kind and strict
we started with limber and stretching class
o.o
cool , paintul and extreme fun
A WHOLE NEW WORLD ~~~ before i start singing..
hahahas
i cant describe it\
awesome lorhs. hahahs
open class
i was sure of the steps, so BLEK
oh and she praised and scolded me so .. hahaha
subway for lunch.
i wonder why i even ate it.
the watch parts of the performance.
and learnt some
i played the girlfriend mouse
good ole friend moley played the boyfriend mouse
then had to perform
omg ...
mice did horribly
ducks and foxes did good.
hmph
we had to keep pausing music.
then after ballet ><, we went to the deli
and bought coke.
i everyday must drink coke
ultimate fav
then come back hotel
ate in hotel rest.
spaghetti bolognese.
awesome lil me.
then come back
move to this room that room
then watch lil mermaid
CD 1 only.. heehee.. PAISEH
sorry moley
then sleep lorh.

I SHALL CONTINUE THE REST ANOTHER DAY.
DUN CRY.

2009-12-08T17:04:00.001+08:00

too lazy to post about australia. dun worry i'll do it by xmas

2009-11-26T13:13:00.000+08:00

i think the PSLE results are so high only because so many parents complained that the paper was too hard.
as in come on, people complaining "cant finish the paper" , "standard too hard" blah blah blah and yet 290?!!!! wth la. ok maybe that person is a born genius. but for the averages and other people who didnt even study and get so high?
its ok candice, at least i know that the standard is difff
thats why the marks are different
so there is no comparison to be made -.-

2009-11-23T12:44:00.002+08:00

johanna is at my house now.
and WE are bored.
at least
I am bored
come on
with me around
can she be bored?
NO :D

2009-11-20T21:37:00.001+08:00

9 more days

2009-11-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

The perfect Bestfriend for me :D

Truly understands me
is outgoing and knows how to make me laugh
i never feel bored with her
she's enjoys a good fight as much as i do
she knows when to gimme my due attention needed
a good listener
is girly ( not MUST )
puts me as NO.1

2009-11-16T17:59:00.001+08:00

what kinda game are you playing?
oh btw , you will always be my bff :D
and i am no longer angry or upset
just waiting for you to understand me more
and the first step is to
talk to me

Plus Factors For Excitement Of Australia Trip

2009-11-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

omg i really cannot wait anymore man!! its like two more weeks. In exactly two freaking long more weeks, i will be in my hotel room - or maybe still eating my chinese dinner - in Australia. Its just so exciting. There are so many things i am looking forward to, and so many things i am NOT looking forward to. But as usual, the things that i am looking forward to is MORE than the things i am not looking forward to. Optimism mah . My character :DDD. Hmm lets start from the beginning :P
I am looking forward to packing. I always liked packing for overseas trips. Or camps. It makes me even more excited. I just can't wait!!! OK chillax candice . hmm apparently all i know about the weather there is :" ITS HOT". but its better than nothing. at least i wun need to pack winter clothes which i dun have any. WAHAHHAAHHAHAHA. And my mother said i can get to pack my luggage myself - bless her - as in like choose what to bring . But i can bet with you 10 bucks that she will still look through and take out many things to put in alot others which i will not be happy about. hahaha i just hope i can pack all i want into the luggage and there is space for more!! :D shopping ~ its time to get MORE christmas presents.HINT HINT. i love christmas so i like buying stuff. its the joy of giving you know. Gimme money and i can turn into Santa. :D just a much skinner, younger, and happier version of santa. not to mention a female version :P
Next, i am looking forward to the trip because of my lovely partner. A good partner is always important. It determines the FUN level of the whole trip you know. As in if your partner is crappy, I wish you good luck from the bottom of my heart. HOW YOU SURVIVE>< but if you partner is loads of fun fun and more fun , then you will have fun too !! My partner isnt very fun, but i am :D and the good thing is, because i am fun, and she is the type that will go along with mee to BE fun - and not the kind that pull a long face at my jokes just because she's the one not getting all the attention - then we'll have a whole load of fun. Sorry my vocabulary is limited so i am just going to say FUN FUN AND FUN only. My partner is the one and only MOLEY. She's so much fun to bully so i would have a hell of a lifetime. And not to mention easy-going. HAHA . Heyy i am not so mean though. We are looking out for each other :D She is bringing her laptop so she'll lend me. And her PSP. And her DS. Lucky candice :D I am not taking advantage of her hor. She'll bring it anyway. HAHAHA
Next, I'll be looking forward to the plane ride. I always loved plane rides. No mummy, your daughter will not be a pilot. LOL. OK, i hate it when it takes off. I hate it when it lands. Cos it causes huge PAIN to my poor ears.But i enjoy the journey regardless. Its like throughout the whole journey i will be chatting , playing, watching movie - hopefully they show new moon - , playing games that they provide, eating, sleeping ( but its hard for me to fall asleep on the plane unless i am lying on mummy's or jiejie's lap :D ) Basically, plane rides is also a plus factor, and it also increases the excitement but only when i am going there. coming back is like I WANNA CRY.
Hmm the rest of the plus factors i will discuss after the briefing. you get to know this much for now. LOVE ME !

Reasons

2009-11-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

haiz nowadays i am so freaking lazy to go blogging since i am convinced no one actually reads my blog. but i realised as i am typing this, i dun blog just to because people want to read it and they go " ehh candice, update your blog leh." . Instead why am i blogging now when NO ONE IS REALLY READING ( yeah i'm talking to myself >< ) ? When i set up this blog , it was because everyone had a blog. But i realised as i write one post after another, its because i want to keep the memories in me. i dun want to forget any of my precious times i had with ANYONE. Its my personal online diary of moments i want people to know :D

shopping trip with chiting

2009-11-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

spent today

2 ss501 cds for ching and yitong - 16.95 x 2
2 neoprints - 11.50
minitoons

- pouch for chiting 1150
-sticker for exlink 0.80
-prezzies for 5 pals 7.50
- keychain 2.50

taka

-letter paper 7.70
-stickers 1.95 x 2

kinokuniya ( who the hell cares about spelling at this point )

-2 play and color magazines 34.10

total? as usual i'm lazy to count and i really do not wish to know how much freaking i have spent
hahaha and after this whole thing, i come home and find out that cherise bought the album for yitong at a higher rate and didnt know i bought it already. so apparently, you may like to add 23.1345 to my bill cos i think i am buying it from her as a good friend

Last Day Of School

2009-11-06T19:39:00.003+08:00

today is the last day of school
sad , happy , angry
these emotions all came
sad was to leave everyone esp my favorite teacher miss lee
happy was to spend time with my close friends
angry was with the stupid teachers
when miss lee gave her last farewell i promised to not cry
i'm weak though
hahahaha
actually its because i am so sentimental :D
i had to stop myself now and then though
haiz not really myself
there was isabelle, chiting, weiting and sylvia that helped
hahahas weak sentimental me
i gave her the flowers
then she hugged me
the tears came
naturally
i turned around
and exactly like dramas
i started crying
omg i am such a drama queen
but its really not on purpose
the tears just flowed in instinct
:D / D:
hahahas i cried and cried
haizzzz

after exam bliss PART ONE

2009-10-25T12:26:00.000+08:00

hey everyone!!!!
i haven't blogged for ages
hope you didnt miss me too much
its ok, i am back now :D
EXAMS ARE OFFICALLY OVER
unless i failXD
but oh wells
hee where shall i start from..
AHA
i shall start from going out with linda on wednesday, 21st october, freedom day
so its basically like this:
exams finished
we went to our own houses to pack up, dress up blah blah
then meet at my house to take direct bus to our destination which you will find out very soon.
wanna know now?
ok beg.
i know you are not begging so you'll find out later. :D
but anw
we walked to the busstop
and cos lady luck was on our side,
it came very quickly!!!
*round of applause*
then i said :" if lady luck is really on our side, we'll find seats"
and we did
:D *beams at you sweetly*
lalala so we reached there.
walked there
went to buy tickets
OH i havent told you where right...
HAHA its cineleisure.
duhh
tickets for what?
movie la of course
what movie?
Julie & Julia
ok anw
after tickets
we went up to go ...
*drumroll *
KBOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(yes i did go there. yes i can sing. yes linda could still hear after that. yes no glass broke)
hee we were a little shy at first though
was our first time
what'dya expect from two little innocent souls
so yeah
then go inside
order food and drinks
get food and drinks
eat and drink..
you get the point
then we sang a lot a lot of songs
damn fun!!!
i love linda <3
i love kbox<3
YAY.
erm then we go watch julie and julia
cos of her and her greed germ
each time we saw food in the movie
we were drooling..
wait no
SHE was drooling
i was HUNGRY
anw the movie was so-so
wasn't exactly on the top of my list ( YOU GET THE POINT)
but yeahhh..
then we ate.
after i begged her to take neoprints
(to no avail)
we ate hotpot noodles
she's a slow eater
heehee
so i stared at her while she ate.
then we went home
what a typical day out with your friends -.-
ok will blog PART TWO next

2009-08-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

these few weeks i have been really busy
like siao
deadlines..
worrying about block tests..
friendships..
no one showing concern..
fighting with my mum over the third lang..
life can get horrible at times!\
but sometimes all you need is to put a smile on your face
tell yourself there is nth wrong actually and just be happy
you can be happy when you want to
even though there is a million things going thru your mind
take it one at a time
you arent some alien
chillax
and worrying makes you stressed
i know you would think " then i dun worry i do what? this kind of thing of course must worry la! its serious you know!!! "
hey i never said DUN WORRY AT ALL
i meant dun think too much about it
why am i writing this?
cos one of my friends need tis.